oooooooooh i'm sick. i didn't know i could possibly get this sick anymore. but i am. and i'm sort of glad because that means that i didn't have to show up at the airport for standby at fucking 530am! which i've done all week and which means that i have to wake up at 330am! i myself prefer staying up till those hours. like i probably will all this ( Read more... )

goddamn. i thought i didn't care about this holiday, that it wouldn't phase me. but i've been very depressed today. i am so fucking lonely. a person sent me flowers...they're beautiful really and they did brighten my day for awhile, but now its dark and i have nothing to do tomorrow and no one to call tonight. i think i should purchase some whiskey ( Read more... )

mailing address:

3034 W. Logan Blvd. apt# 3
Chicago, IL 0647

here i go..........zoom..............zoom................zoom! i'm gone. i miss everyone already. especially my cat jackie o. who is now residing with lauren sandidge at the de novo dahl abode. be sure to visit her and be very nice to her as she needs special attention. and be sure to write me letters because i will need some sort of external ( Read more... )

my parents are holding me hostage. i'm never to come out of goodlettsville again. they say that if i leave the house they are not going to help me with money for training and getting set up after training. which means that there is no way around it. unless i want to stay in this town for the rest of my life. i don't know why this is making me feel ( Read more... )

my cat has dread locks at this point. i'm trying to cut them out with scissors, but i'm failing miserably. they're just staying and sticking. that mangey mut. that i love ( Read more... )

i've realized this thing last night and today. i have tried my damndest for this last summer of my life (and maybe for this last year of my life) to not feel anything. and i've hurt a lot of people along the way. i feel like i owe a gigantic apology to the ones that i love. and i know that doesn't do much, to just say a thing like that. but i've ( Read more... )

so yesterday was a good day. i must talk about it, it was so good. and now i feel good being in nashville, like i thought i wouldn't ( Read more... )

ok, its all settled. i was stoned out of my mind the night before last and i thought that really and truly the only logical step is to come back to nashville on august 5th. its a mature and adult decision, i have to make them sometimes, even though i hates it. i love it here. i love my friends here. i love sitting by the hudson river for hours on ( Read more... )

so damn. a lot of things have happened since i last wrote. and now its 4:30am and i can't sleep and i still feel drunk from the drinking i did hours ago. i'm at therese's house, the place i've been residing for the past two or three weeks. i moved out of greg's house because i couldn't take it anymore. he broke my heart and a certain person can't ( Read more... )