I hate myself, I hate the way I look the way I act. I just want it all to stop.

Ok, am so pissed off with myself right now. I've become quite friendly with this lady in my Church & I swear she is so nice & pretty & actually wants to be my friend. Although as of 5:30 yesterday morning I think I totally messed up all chance of that by sending her the most self-indulgent email ever, I was so open & told her why she shouldn't ( Read more... )

I haven't updated in what feels like ages.I can't believe how fast this year has pasted & everything thats happened in that time. I've been feeling really down for awhile now, I have just read laughdoll's post about me, you don't normally talk about me or mention me alot & at times I've felt quite jealous of that, but even when you do write about ( Read more... )

Way - go me!! I managed to break my wrist yesterday morning (Thursday) & am gonna be in plaster over Christmas. What a bummer!!! So I will apologise in advance for my poor writing on my Christmas cards, I am left handed & yep you guessed it - it would have to be my left hand I injure, so my writing is abit squiggly! Anyway, my hand hurts, so am ( Read more... )

Ok comments will scareened when I know how to do it. Althernatively send me an email to contactmhairigilchrist@hotmail.com
Because it might take me awhile to work out how to screen.

Just got back from seeing Dr Cannavina (how much do I love that lady!!) anyway I am going back to see her next week & then I am not going back for a month (that's my decision), am worried about how I will cope, but I need to learn because she will be going on maternity leave very soon & I don't know if she is coming back afterwards - so its better ( Read more... )

This last week has been such a roller-coaster of emotions for me, for different reasons. I injured quite badly last weekend & it didn't make anything 'better' I feel so fat & ugly, it is so painful to even think about it. I just feel like I am losing all control of everything & I NEED CONTROL!! I seem to be losing my closest friends for reasons I ( Read more... )

Argh!! I'm such a failure, the one thing I want to do right is be the best friend I can be & I can't even get that right. I can't even type this right now because am crying so much, so I will try & update later today when things might have settled down.

Well I suppose I should tell you all about Monday night, which was spent drinking Margharita's @ my mates Allie's house - it was brilliant. There were 3 of us there & it was just a proper girlie night, we discussed all our fave TV programme's (Nip/Tuck, The L word etc)& talking about the L word got us into a big conversation about which girl we ( Read more... )

Am so very drunk right now & I love it!!