Got my ball inflated last night then last on the sofa with my feet up on it - lol, not sure thats going to help my balance or core stability any!!! But I did take the dogs a very long walk this morning, in fact Corrie has been sleep (& snoring) since!! But I'm going to do that wolk every morning now ( Read more... )

I'm still here!! I just don't really have much to say on anything right now. Will update as soon as I can think of things I want to say.

<<<<---- The face of ugliness!! I am so fat & ugly, I hate me!!! Got a stupid text msg from Wendy that said "Um you were feigning to not know me or something, but whatever I don't care. Just returning your call." But I wasn't 'pretending' not to know her (what the purpose of that would be, I don't know!!!) but it was a bad line so I said hello a ( Read more... )

Ok, 4wks without SI'ing, pretty good huh ( Read more... )

I've just realised that I'm the problem in my relationships/friendships!! I'm the one who makes things difficult for people, it's my fault I don't have any friends. Admittedly though there were serious issues with Sara, so I'm not assuming 100% blame for that - she was/still is a bitch!! But Wendy is lovely, she really is & I muck about because I' ( Read more... )

I hate my life!!! Just spoke to Wendy, basically she said I just need to 'take charge' of myself & don't bother if people like me or not, because in her words "At the end of the day, friends will come & go, what really matters is your family & yourself." so basically her friends don't mean very much to her, I find that hard to accept or adopt as a ( Read more... )

I went out for 'the' meal last night, it was so awful!! I didn't really want to eat anything, so kinda just shoved the spaghetti around my plate. I hardly spoke because the first topic was about wedding anniversaries (what could I contribute that that conversation?) then it was about about babies, in particular giving birth (again what could I ( Read more... )

I am updating very much these days. I don't seem to have the same motivation to sit & think about what I want to say. Last week I was feeling pretty shitty physically, I have a sore headache almost everyday of last week & was being sick almost every morning too, luckily it seems to have cleared now - which is just as well because I was in no mood ( Read more... )

First of all & before I forget BREAK A LEG ENDRAIA!! I am sure Pendragon will go just fine for U ( Read more... )

This is a very quick update just to let you all know that am Ok, my last entry was abit abrupt. Thank you Endraia for Ur reply. I go to see Neil today & I have to be as honest as I can with him, that is @ 3:00pm then I have Dr Cannavina @ 4:30pm, so its going to be a busy day, who would have thought it's a month since I was @ the Dr's last!! I ( Read more... )