"Running as Fast as I Can"

[similiesslip]

(NOTE: Almost my entire entry that follows is recorded here, in a voice post. I am long-winded, so the voice post does lack the last few sentences, which are available in written form at the end of my entry.)

Comments

[zhelana]

I am amazed that you got everything done the day your son had a seizure!

[similiesslip]

I almost wonder looking back...why did I feel I had to finish the paper? My prof may have understood. It almost seems heartless perhaps that I wrote it, with my kid in the hospital. I guess I was working on auto-pilot. So much of my life is a push to go ahead and get my work in on time so it just seemed like what I needed to do that night.

I woke up, middle of the night and thought, "Oh my. Did I remember to add a conclusion to my paper?" I couldn't remember. I then looked at my watch. It was after midnight so, if I hadn't, the paper was late anyways. So I turned over to sleep.

(Turns out I HAD written a conclusion but had forgotten about it. Too much stress!)

[zhelana]

I can completely understand that. Some weeks I have to schedule myself down to the half an hour as to what I will accomplish and when to get everything in. Last week was one of those. Yikes!

[millysdaughter]

I am not so sure about "let go and let God" as the tagline -- our secretary ends every message with "don't ask God to guide your steps if you are not willing to move your feet"
Personally, I think He wants us to participate fully in life, not to just sit back and wait for Him to hand us stuff.

[similiesslip]

I guess it's just the people I know. My parents CONSTANTLY tell me to "let go and let God," as do some people at church. I've tried that and, like you, I don't think I was going to just be HANDED anything when I am perfectly capable of working.

[millysdaughter]

My church is too busy asking, "OK, where can **you** be put to work?"

[similiesslip]

As I am at yours. Seriously. Your relentless pursuit for a job WHILE you work at another is very inspiring. You have no idea how much I am hoping you find the job of your dreams..or even just something you enjoy a little better and THEN the job of your dream:)

Keep your chin up. I really do think you'll find what you are looking for!

[adoptedwriter]

You are definitely not weak! You're amazing! AW

[similiesslip]

I don't know. YOU'RE the one working 3 jobs and sending out a book to publishers! Honestly, YOU inspire me! I feel if I had been strong, I would have accomplished more BEFORE kids so I could take care of them better now but I guess hindsight is always 20/20.

Thanks for your kind words!

[wrensgirl]

You CAN do it! You're almost there.

[similiesslip]

I'm getting there. I need to write extra papers outside of class for my portfolio to try to get into the teacher ed program early due to scheduling issues but yes, I'm finally seeing the light even though I have several semesters left.

Thanks for your kind vote of confidence!