I'm glad you found it so as I feel I kind of "dashed it off." It was many years ago now but definitely something that came to mind as soon as I read the topic.
It was a powerful experience. Even finally getting pregnant didn't give me "everything" (ie, we still struggled as we were out of work and there were other pressures) but it was amazing that ... that it could work.
I had begun to believe I would never be a mother. And now I am. Three times over.
I am sad I miscarried my third child (I was pregnant four times) but I will be forever grateful that I did not lose my first child.
I don't think I could have stood that. I am very grateful though, as the pregnancy you are MOST likely to miscarry is your first. I'm not sure why that is but that is what statistics reveal.
A heartening story I so wanted to know you had that baby, it mattered. Also understand the struggles you went through being without, but babies survive usually. Without luxuries, and they don't remember much of it.
I don't know why it mattered to me so much. I laugh now, thinking of how worried I was that there was no nursery, specially painted blue with a theme and matching curtains.
But at the time, it seemed to matter so much. I read lots of books and magazines about preparing for baby and I worried that my lack of supplies would somehow set my child back.
He needed that black and white mobile to strengthen his mind right? And the board books with photos of babies to teach him emotions, right?
I was a little crazy with my high expectations. He had none of that (extras to grow his brain) and obviously, that didn't make much difference.
You are so right. Babies don't remember what they did not have.
Thanks so much for your kind comments. I appreciate you reading and sharing your thoughts!
Well, my son has really struggled in many areas. Which I guess is kind of common but it threw me.
But yes, they are ours and every part of them makes them who they are. He struggles but that makes every time he manages to pass an assignment or focus in a crowd that much more special and sweeter.
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It was a powerful experience. Even finally getting pregnant didn't give me "everything" (ie, we still struggled as we were out of work and there were other pressures) but it was amazing that ... that it could work.
I had begun to believe I would never be a mother. And now I am. Three times over.
You never know, I guess.
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You never know, I guess. That is so very true!
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There is a quote that says, "Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans." That has certainly been true in my life!
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I don't think I could have stood that. I am very grateful though, as the pregnancy you are MOST likely to miscarry is your first. I'm not sure why that is but that is what statistics reveal.
Thanks for your kind words!
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But at the time, it seemed to matter so much. I read lots of books and magazines about preparing for baby and I worried that my lack of supplies would somehow set my child back.
He needed that black and white mobile to strengthen his mind right? And the board books with photos of babies to teach him emotions, right?
I was a little crazy with my high expectations. He had none of that (extras to grow his brain) and obviously, that didn't make much difference.
You are so right. Babies don't remember what they did not have.
Thanks so much for your kind comments. I appreciate you reading and sharing your thoughts!
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I'm in the same situation right now, so I absolutely understand what you're talking about here. Thank you.
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But yes, they are ours and every part of them makes them who they are. He struggles but that makes every time he manages to pass an assignment or focus in a crowd that much more special and sweeter.
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