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Into the eyes of me
He stared off into space, seeing what was not there. He was floating, drifting among the mishapen clouds in the hazy blue sky. Figures danced in and out of his mind, twisting together to create new, unrecognizable shapes and explosive colors screaming red blared into his eyes, then disappeared as quickly as it came. His head was apart from his body ( Read more... ) -
Drugged
Drug
Kind friend of mine, you are like a drug. I have developed a habit to you. I cannot remember the last time that I did not need a hit. I have been cold turkey, as they say, for so many days now. I cannot take this torture anymore. It is driving me to insanity. I have tried so hard to beat this addiction but I do not ever see it happening. I need ( Read more... ) -
Pretty Little Thing
Pretty Little Thing
Pretty Little Thing’s weight was always within five pounds of one hundred. Either five pounds more or five pounds less, never more than five, never less than five. She was tiny, possibly anorexic but she would never admit to it. She had almost straight black hair which was quite long (maybe too long for her age) and the fiercest ( Read more... ) -
it was hell but it was a simpler time
I never knew who I was. It was like being tossed from foster home to foster home - never having a base. I never felt anything long enough to create a personality around it. I was drunk, I was high, I was down, I was up, I was low, I was on top of the world. It was a constant overwhelming roller coaster - and it hasn't ended. There are just no more ( Read more... ) -
The Real girl dreams
For once I’m bleeding through my fingers and not my thighs. Maybe I’ll have some great revelation tonight. But probably not. I just keep coming back to those words I became captivated with awhile ago: I’m not real. I can’t possibly be real. This is all just a very bad dream sequence and some REAL girl is going to wake up tomorrow and be like,
“Fuck ( Read more... ) -
Drug Rant
I am not proud of my life and what you mistake for pride is more so a cry for help. Dependency is not something that anyone should ever be proud of. I am still in part the silly little girl who was enthralled by the sordid world of drug addiction. I still sometimes find myself romanticizing the events of my life. They, though, ( Read more... ) -
Half a hydro Just between friends
Phase 1:
I don't feel a thing
And I'm disappointed...
I need a 'BANG'
Just once,
Just tonight.
Phase 2:
I fell into the floor
Laughing so freakin hard
Over the fact that it wasn't working
And he was amazed
At my tolerance.
Phase 3:
I'm a little twitchy
But Nick hasn't noticed,
But then again...
He's in the front.
Phase 4:
T.J. says we look tweaked
Out of our fucking ( Read more... )