you know i really dont know what is going on with me lately.I feel so lonely,i mean i am just so away,tuned out from everyone and everything i ever loved.Its Just Dragging me down and I really hate it.I just can stand it as of late.right now I love being a mom but I hatebeing me.

I just love when people ocme back to town when the move away and think that everyones lives have to stop or change just cause they are back for a visit!

stupid people

i moved back into my parents house and the baby is being passed back and fourth between erik and i every two days.I dont like it and neither does erik, we want to be together in the same house, but there are circumstances that are keeping that from happening!!!!

depression
this sucks ass!

LIFE = PERFECTIN ♥

life pretty much just fell to peices lastnight
erik and erik jr are all i have now and i am all they have
but hey we can make it
what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

fight fight fight
i apologize
fight fight fight
I apologize

repeat this again and again and it all becomes me saying sorry.

ALWAYS ME

I said something along these lines on myspace.however ill put it here ( Read more... )

whane you feel like everythign is caving in around you and you can't breathe?

Erik Jr. Is doing good, and i am exhausted..Doesn't that sound fucn ( Read more... )

I always knew that having a baby would be hard, but i guess i never really knew how hard that it would be.I love my son so much. i think that he maybe the only thing that i have ever done right in my life.And i am goignt o do everythign that i can to make sure that he is safe healthy and happy for his whole entire life ( Read more... )