sometimes i cant think the way i want to. and sometimes i can feel the way i think i do. sometimes i feel like screaming but i am as silent as the night. i have tears but so thoughts. what makes me cry. is it because i cant think or feel or know. i dont know. i have no idea. and everything around me is fake. false. not true. i'm lost in my own ( Read more... )

Work was tough. long day. and busy.

i finally talked to shawn at 1am ! uuuhh.. it felt so good to talk to him. i missed him tons. and like.. who was it.. bryan's gf, i didnt say that shawn was all over some chickzilla girl.. dont remember her name.. i said she was trying to get with shawn but shawn was like i want my gf. but its ok. little ( Read more... )

a little bitty. i think. i am tired. my contacts hurt my head. and i had a long day at work. i fell asleep before. but shawn.. nicely awoke me. mmm. havent in a while. it was nice to be alone. i enjoyed it. my neck and back and feet hurts oh so. i am watching ed, edd, and eddy. funnnie. idk. its almost midnight. i am talking to the lovely lauren. ( Read more... )

a quickkie. worked all day. then shopped, bought a awesome bra for 3$ .. hah. and a little zipup hoodie for 9somthing, and.. socks. yeh. thats all. came home.. and cleaned shawn's room. and thought how much it stinks to not have a dresser.. well one with you .. cause mine would never fit in shawn's room, alone.. let alone with shawn's things. ew. ( Read more... )

tiring day. work at 7am .. shitty. i worked the register! niccccee. i like it. my dad picked me up for lunch - depressing lunch ever - he doesnt make sense anymore.. he repeats himself, and changes things, then i dont know. just upsets me. i dont know what to think/feel/say .. anything.

then at 4 .. i came to home.. actually shawn's home. but ( Read more... )

long, easy day. i wasnt feeling very good this morning. so i called off. my chest hurt so bad, it felt like i had so much pressure on it. i was horrible. actually today wasnt that great. except when shawn came home for lunch, he made me some soup. it was sweet. i have work tomorrow thou. so i have to get to bed early. and i am pretty tired. my ( Read more... )

Long, and very tired day.. grr.

Yesterday was halloween. yeh! well jer dropped shawn off at my grams. so i met shawn up there. he took a shower and we got ready to leave.. i got into a fight with my father and sister. then shawn and i left to his mom's. we got there and stuff. hung out, then went to see his grandfather. i was feeding, adam, shawn' ( Read more... )

Good Morning - Happy Halloween

and dont forget to set your clocks back an hour today..

i feel horrible today. ehh, eww.

saturday shawn left around 12ish. not bad, cause we went to sleep late.. lol. well after he left, i took a shower. and cleaned up his room a bit. then i went home.. did laundry, talked with my mom, uncle tim, and becky, took ( Read more... )

Long Long Day..

first dennis wakes me up late ! it's okay thou.

well i wake at 8;15.. not enough time to wash my face, brush my teeth, and get dressed.. little backwards. =/

so i was late for work, but i had an excuse cause i forgot my name tag and coat thingy.. i lied. a little. haha. and i dont have work until monday ! goodie ! hopefully i'll ( Read more... )

i'm feeling like crap. just cause like idk, my parents really upset me. and i honestly dont know what to do about it.

actually everything is making me upset. i hate it. grrr. F You All !!

But i had a good day, kind of.. i did laundry this morning. i woke up with shawn, even thou i was so tired. but i got my lazy ass up. and then i called every ( Read more... )