i am a slave to my school work and some people just dont understand how that can make me so happy. but it does. because its dependable, and increadibly satisfying. I know that at the end of the day, if i spend hours working on somehting, it will never leave me... its not going to run away, its not going to stop calling, and the harder i work the ( Read more... )

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its been so long since ive resorted to the pages of this journal but for so long it was more important for me to figure out being happy. id say im well on my way to being better. and comming home this weekend was probably a very smart idea. however ( Read more... )

my life just isn't that interesting anymore. its over

remeber when livejournal was like this super exclusive club? and you could only get in by getting a code, a code you could only get from someone who had just joined and was only given one code, which they had promised to about four people? So they would secretly give it to someone and make them promise their code to someone else. and most often ( Read more... )

not to such a good family

im totally convinced that no matter what i do i will never be good enough. they all want perfect and i can't be that. they all want fake and i can't be that either ( Read more... )

if i actually had time to write in this stupid thing like i did last year? or furthermore if i even cared about writting anymore. if its just a phase it was an awfully long one...

last night, after a full FULL day of sitting at the kitchen counter doing homework i decided it was time for bed. i shut off my bedroom light expecting the city lights to shine through my window and give me a little bit of light. alright no, im not in the city. how about some moonlight then? no? none of that. it was PITCH black. fine then ( Read more... )

it can't, these thoughts are NOT going through my head.... not, i repeat not. what is wrong with me? what the f? sara, lets be honest with yourself really, reallly are you REALLY in such deep denial? or are you just that desperate.

i think your just desperate...and quite frankly its got to stop.

STOP!