i am sorry i didn't sleep in with you more. i am sorry for all the times i turned over late at night. i am sorry for every moment i was with you and not holding your hand. i am sorry for every second wasted.

i never realized how little time we had.

i miss you.

a professor has offered to talk to me, work with me, help me somehow find a way to become a writer and get an MFA. the best part is... i didn't ask him to help me. he came to talk to me about it ( Read more... )

i've made several "new years resolutions." i don't really believe in new years resolutions, but thanks to Starbucks, it's just convenient that my latest life realizations and panic happened on the first of the year. and, i'm determined to try and follow these through so i'm posting them to hopefully make myself a little more accountable ( Read more... )

i am tired of hearing "well, she's a woman running for president. what more do you need to know?" i am tired of hearing "why is that homophobic?" i am tired of hearing "well, we can't do anything about that anyways" and "but it happens everywhere ( Read more... )

my dad made a little slip. on his way out to fight the property taxes on our house, he asked if i wanted "to come see our government in action." i couldn't help but point out it was difficult to tell whether or not it was "in action" (as in a verb) or "inaction" (as in the noun ( Read more... )

so, i promised a post about music.

and i don't really know what to say because lately most of what i've been hearing in my head includes rice cultivation society and doc baker's traveling musicial extraganza, both of which you'd be unable to find any where because they're students here.

but then again, sometimes it's okay just to be a spektor. ( Read more... )

today, i sat outside and read. homework, classwork, but still. it was reading, and it was outside in the grass under trees starting to bud out and it was... beautiful ( Read more... )

during your life, you'll hear a million voices. some loud, some soft, some lovely, and some awfully not ( Read more... )