today would have been robbie's 19th birthday. i miss him a lot.

so i hung out with eric for like 3 hours today. it was wonderful. i've not been able to stop smiling since he called me last night. that's right yall, i've been smiling for a whole day straight!!! but the whole day we didn't fight or anything! how amazing is that? i can't remember the last time we actually hung out and didn't fight. it seems weird ( Read more... )

so you guys, remember how i told you awhile back that i've been having these dreams about eric again? well guess who i just got off the phone with? the wonderful eric!!! i can't tell you how happy this makes me. like i know i shouldn't be freaking out like this cause it might just lead me down to the road of disappointment again, but i don't care ( Read more... )

lately i've been thinking and dreaming about eric more and more. i can't get him out of my head. i guess cause his birthday is in a few weeks and i've always spent his birthday with him...for the past 4 years. i miss him so much it is rediculous. i want to be with him again more than anything ( Read more... )

i'm so sick of being alone.

we just got done burying (sp?) fish. he's now in our back yard right at the woods. i didn't realize how difficult it is to dig a hole!! i figured since it just got done raining that the dirt would be soft...nope, not at all...but now 20 min after we started, he's in the ground. atleast until my cats dig him up...which they'll do...but oh well.

so Fish died today. i've had him for almost a year and now he's gone. he was just layin in the bottom of his tank when i went to feed him tonight. i'm quite upset. i realize that he is a fish and all this, but i grew attached to him. and now he's gone ( Read more... )

it is 2:45 in the morning...i have to be up in 6 hours. i can't sleep. its driving me crazy. sam is over here...she's started spending every saturday night with me. so i'm on the couch but for some reason i just can't sleep ( Read more... )

porter, elizabeth, sam, billy, jess, jessica, dubey, and vessel are possibly the coolest people in the world. but mostly, porter liz, sam and billy...i love those four so much...i mean, i love all of my friends, but between my lil brother billy, and porter who just is...well, porter, elizabeth who i have a lot in common with and sam who is my ( Read more... )

so guess what guys...i'm gonna be an aunt!!! my sister (ashley, not sarah) is pregnant. granted she lives in west virgina so i'm probably never gonna get to see the child except in pictures, it doesn't matter...i'm gonna be an aunt dang it! but i'm so happy for ashley, she has wanted a child from the very beginning. she had one miscarriage when her ( Read more... )