It really bugs me that I am annoyed that Randal hasn't changed his status to "in a relationship" on MySpace. Have done gone stupid? I mean, what does it matter to me? I know he is and he knows he is and so do most of our friends. Seriously, I'm wondering if I need to up my dose of these meds or if I'm immune to anything that should calm my nerves ( Read more... )

It's nearly 10 AM the morning of New Year's Eve. I'm restless today. I've been feeling the tug of of wanting to keep myself busy for days now. I'm not sure if its just the need to feel as though I am accomplishing something or if I am afraid to sit down and reflect on the past year and the year to come ( Read more... )

The best bumper sticker of my morning: "Vampire slayers against Bush". *grin*

I’ve been wandering around in this little rose-hued bubble since Sunday. I got the best Christmas present I could have asked for that day (I know…*passes around vomit bags*). I have felt this serious sense of relief and I haven’t really worried about a single thing since then. Someone asked me today how I was doing and for the first time in a long ( Read more... )

The band is playing downstairs. Most people would hate living in a home that had a band practicing twice a week. I live in a home where two bands practice at least twice a week. Tonight it is Violet Run that plays and as I sit here cruising the internet and thinking about how odd this new medication has been making me feel the past few days I stop ( Read more... )

This morning I still feel like death is lingering on the other side of my front door. At least he’s on the porch now instead of chillin’ on my couch playin’ Guitar Hero II with the Witch Hazel and Nightshade like I distinctly remember him doing over the weekend. My doctor has decided to put me on Celexa, which is apparently the same thing as ( Read more... )

It's 12 hours later and except for moments here and there I have had very little sleep. The exhaustion is overwhelming and I find that I have a hard time controlling my thoughts today. I think that an entire day spent with a fever and a night spent without sleeping can very easily send you into a tailspin. As I sit here...photos of His interest ( Read more... )

Damn it's early in the morning, which really means its a very late night for me. I can't seem to make my body understand that being healthy is a good thing and not a cardinal sin. I am so tired of being sick that it brought me to tears tonight. I've been seriously feeling like shit for almost a full week now. When I am sick I would pay a million ( Read more... )

As I jacked in your voice flooded through the wiring and into my ears and it made me smile, stop and listen just for a moment. The brief time spent sitting still and just breathing will be the highlight of my work day. The smell of peppermint and your hands still fills my nose and today seems like a day where I brought you with me like a blanket- ( Read more... )

24 coated tablets and five have now passed down my throat. The label specifically states, "Do not take more than 2 caplets in 24 hours." Maybe thats why I've thrown up everything except for the Pier 49 pizza I just ate and maybe that's why I can feel the alfredo and spinach crawling up towards my throat. My head hurts. I can't be happy when my head ( Read more... )