Amanda and Joel came down for a few days. It was honestly the best time I've had in a long time. I felt it when they left though. Back to reality. I guess I can't complain because things are going alright, but I still feel the burn of being alone down here. I guess what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, right? Well I should have the strength of ( Read more... )

Life is going pretty good. I feel like I bitch about the same shit over and over again. School still stresses me out, but I'm doing well. And work is fine. We lost 7 residents this month, so walking into work feels like heartbreak central. At one point, it was bearable to go into work. Anymore, I'm just glad I work two days a week ( Read more... )

School is going well. I have my work cut out for me but I'm not complaining. It's about damn time that I need a challenge ( Read more... )

I took a huge shot at luck. I wanted to meet people after this whole ordeal but I didn't want to be in a relatonship. But there was this one guy who something in my gut told me to talk to him. So I decided to wing it and write him. He is 22 and going to school for architectural engineering. He is friggen cute as can be with his big brown doe eyes. ( Read more... )

I haven't been this depressed in a long time.

Life comes at you fast ( Read more... )

The more I fall inlove, the harder it is to live down here. I hate the distance. And what's even worse is when I know I can come up to see him, my night at work sucks. The night drags on and I'm in a bad mood because all I know is that I don't want to be here. I guess I can't say I don't need you. Because to an extent, I do. I've taught myself to ( Read more... )

I fell inlove. It's funny how one day we were fighting and the next day I was completely smitten. I love Kirk's son Jack. He makes me excited for this whole family thing. Plus he is like the glue holding Kirk and I together. Not that I don't want to be with Kirk cause that is definitely not what I mean. I mean that this is something I am looking ( Read more... )

It's the same old shit like before.

I hate how I feel right now. I know I'm overreacting. Why is it when we are together, things are perfect and when we are apart, there is tension? I hate how I feel like I take a step forward and ten steps backwards. Of all the fucking things I have tried to improve on, I fuck up on the one I think is the least important. I feel like an idiot. But ( Read more... )