WHAT IS THIS I AM gin drunk and terrified, exposed nerve endings and raw anxiety what is this what is this blind ambition maddened efforts to collect the sky that I can't even touch what the unripe spill of my imagination my brittle heart the hollow chime of my heart my unhappened heart drinkheavy and petrified see it so happening me a sloppy drunk ( Read more... )

Ah! and is this not the madness I remember, stiff feverish hands, the poetcalling, timetravel daydreams, deathponderings, contemplations on what is life and does it matter and answerrich I answer oh god yes of course it does well how then do I operate ( Read more... )

Part Four: Something about taking responsibility for your actions and not just in justifying hedonism. Live toward some end with a special emphasis on the day, rebelling not for the sake of rebellion but to abolish antiquated ideologies and recent, but corrupt developments. Sort of anti-beat to the key that right and wrong are sometimes ( Read more... )

step one: Nabokov's working vocabulary, Hemingway's dominant symbolism, Faulkner's streaming conscious, movement from identity moratorium to achievement

I fell back through the ether. We were smoking out the backseat of her sister’s car singing “Love, love will tear us apart” and I was holding her hand because she was nervous and afraid. I never realized how deeply the line ran, never was so acutely aware of my presence in space and time, peaked more receptive and dynamic than I ever would again. ( Read more... )

"I'm ready for the Family Circus kids to grow up and start smoking weed..."

October 13 ( Read more... )

She tells me that she’s going home to listen to In Rainbows because it helps her cry and I don’t know what to say so I tell her that Control is a solid alternative. I try to explain that it’s impossible to be anything but happy when listening to Of Montreal.
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He’s just a slutty little flirt and sister he’s only gonna hurt you

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Sitting at a coffee shop listening to terrible music. God I smoke too much.