this is an unedited account of a very bad hospitalization. i posted it to alt.angst twenty years ago. it's not particularly graphic but i find it disturbing. that's possibly because reading it, i remember everything smelling like piss and then all blaming me for it. a couple of years later i saw a psychopharmacologist who told me that bed-wetting ( Read more... )

i am trying to do the 350 words five days a week thing. i'm posting the stuff i write here because it's accountability. im a feedback monster, so if you want to be on the filter let me know and i will add you. comments screened.

http://www.fark.com/comments/8060626/Because-some-people-think-its-perfectly-acceptable-to-give-canned-escargot-fruitcake-its-not-here-are- ( Read more... )

my article on xojanesome of the comments are depressing (i am entitled and should be glad to have gotten that fruitcake because fruitcake is tasty (it was the fruit, dammit. fruitcake fruit is disgusting on its own)), but some are good. a couple of people who work for food banks agree enthusiastically, so i don't feel too bad. a little, and i'm ( Read more... )

because of my tattoo, i can now assume people are staring at me for some other reason than my being the size of a small planet.

i am going to laser daft punk, which is a thing i did not know existed until shortly before i agreed to go to it. my companion will be someone who is much more normal than i am (fondness for laser shows aside). i'm not sure this is a good idea, but i guess it will only be an hour or so. though i will bet money that the laser people will play " ( Read more... )

yet another lawn-emo-cut itself joke on my fb friends list, only i'm too burned out to explain why posting it is stupid. not just the 'old joke that was never really that clever to begin with' or the 'perpetuating stereotypes' but the 'potentially pissing off/hurting anyone you know who uses self-harm to cope.' i'm so tired of explaining this to ( Read more... )

i posted pictures of my new tattoo to fb, but if you're not on there you can see them here ( Read more... )

when i am following a complicated pattern, i know what the finished object is meant to look like but sometimes it takes a while to understand what the pattern is doing. when i finally get it, it all makes sense. i just have to trust the pattern.
right now my life is about trusting the pattern. it's kind of like “just keep swimming" but instead of ( Read more... )

i'm going to be in the bay area feb 22-24 or so (we'll see what priceline routlette has to say) for sql saturday on the 23rd. (yay!) if anyone wants to meet up, please let me know. the event is from 8.30 until 5ish on saturday and i may hang around a bit longer ( Read more... )