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Hey all, It was soooo incredibly amazing to see everyone at Ali's house on Friday night. Thanks so much for coming over and showing me a good time. It felt so good to be back home this weekend, seeing familiar faces and having the support of everyone around me. I have this week and then half of next week left for the partial program, then its ( Read more... )

Well howdy doo everyone!!! Its been way to freakin long since ive updated. Im still in Iowa city getting treatment for this whole dealio, but things are progressing wonderfully and im feeling soo good about everything. I get to move on to the partial program next wednesday, so ill be staying in a hotel for a little bit while i do the partial ( Read more... )

Tomorrow I leave for Iowa City. I cant believe im going to another hospital. Well whats new. Im pretty depressed about it, in fact. Pretty pissed too. I refuse to continue packing for it. I refuse to be gone on Christmas day, and ill do whatever i can to get out of being there for that weekend. I have no modivation to conquer this disorder ( Read more... )

Just updating on how im doing and what my life is like right now---Im going to be hospitalized again, but this time im going to a hospital in iowa. Ill be leaving the monday after thanksgiving. Good because ill be home with the family for the holiday, bad because ill now have to deal with eating with all the relatives....completely stressful. ( Read more... )

Mikey is gone, I didn't get a chance to spend more time with him at school...Why Mikey?? Why now? Can God throw me any more shit to deal with right now ( Read more... )

What the fuck is my purpose right now ( Read more... )

Here's how I see it: I need to figure out what happiness is to me, truly. Because when I eat, im depressed. When I dont eat, im happy. But not eating gets me to the place that Im in right now: unable to go to school. So either ive never known what happiness is, or ive forgotten what it means to be truly happy, or i just need a better ( Read more... )

On tap for today ( Read more... )

Death to boring days, depression, and 2% cottage cheese....