Eh, I'm bored... and since I lost all my old friends my night life has suffered... great... no more parties, no more drinking, no more fun. fuck. whatever. it's just fuckin lame. Cody and Derrick are the only people that will call me from the group these days. Derrick is at work and cody lost his cell... so idk what to do tonight. poop. whatever ( Read more... )

so having people over yesterday was nice... it was fun to see old friends again. especially melissa haney. I miss her. her and I were soooooooo tight freshmen year. shit happens. I went and test drove MY truck today. it was amazing. toyota tacoma. i loved it. no looking back. the father thinks its a stupid idea. i think him living is a stupid idea ( Read more... )

4 people now hate me. Brent (still) Shane (again) Danielle (again) Kaylee (newly). and I'm not too happy with any of them. I dont care much though. I'm gonna have some people over on friday though. if you read my journal you are probebly totally welcome to come. Marissa, Jesica, Little jo. it would be SWEET if any of you can come. I'll probebly ( Read more... )

Hurrah. the two things I am have become apparent. intellegant and a skank. those are the things I'm called most. no one called me a skank today. yay. that is a full 24 hours of not being called a skank. I was called a bitch though. so I guess I'm three things. bitch. skank. smart... Thea called me today and invited me out with her. she was with ( Read more... )

I typed this all up... then my comp turned off. fuck. got a new swim suit today. love it. Saw Thea today for the first time in weeks. she saw me before anyone else. felt nice. no. amazing. I told her after we hung out I'd take her to Brent's. after we talk a while, I saw we should go by JPs so she can drop off stuff she got him. he gets in my car. ( Read more... )

I slept with Derrick. I was drunk, and stoned. yes I've started smoking, it happens. just pot. get over it. dont bother telling my mother, my sister already did. Danielle hates me for sleeping with Derrick. So does Shane. He has no right. He dissappeared for 2 days after he promised he'd be back in 10 minutes. and that he wanted to sleep next to ( Read more... )

Everything major that has happened lately in order: EVERYTHING ( Read more... )

So Shane and I are having issues... it sucks. I think he's mad at me because he isn't talking to me, but he says he isnt. and when I ask if he still wants to be with me he says yes... so idk whats going on for sure. I think him and I are going to become just friends again soon. we'll see. I'm scared. I'm not ready to be with out him. we'll see. I'm ( Read more... )

I got laid... last night... it was wonderful. you know how I've said I hate sex? I dont hate sex with Shane... I like sex with Shane. I like Shane. it was wonderful. I want to be with him for... a while... a long while. ha makes me happy, but isn't TOOO serious. sometimes I wish he was a little more serious. he still kisses other girls. pecks on ( Read more... )

One for him and one for me. Can we both handle just one? I'm giving up other boys for Shane, and he's giving up girls for me. Amazing. Can I do it? Can he? I hope so. Trev says he's shady... and should watch it. idk. So do most people. I hope he doesnt hurt me. I'm scared. sorry for the lsat entry being extra long... just had a lot to say. have ( Read more... )