so I'm like this soulless heart eating bitch. we all knew that. I'm gonna get a full time job and leave school for the next two quarters cause my mom won't pay for it. I applied to Central, so I might just move up to ellensberg and get an appartment and wait till this upcoming school year to start. sounds like a bad plan sure to ruin my life? ( Read more... )

I'm moving back into the dorms tomorrow. I have no phone. I don't really want to do anything or go to work today. I don't really have anyone to love anymore.

I want to run away to another state and not tell anyone. maybe they'll think I died. I hope so.

I was so drunk last night. I can't believe I did that. A whole bottle of champagne. I'm really feeling it now. I'm not going to class today, particularly because I'm avoiding another sort of headache. I can't believe what I said last night. I can only remember half of it and that was bad enough. I guess I'm expecting a whole lot of glares ( Read more... )

I ma the scum of the earth. I lie, cheat, and then smile. what have I become ( Read more... )

Love ridden, I've looked at you ( Read more... )

We stopped for coffee in the Redwood forest. Giant dripping leaves. Spoons of powdered cream. I wanted to kiss you, but wasn't sure how. Like those indians lost in the rainforest, forced to drag burning wood wherever they went. They had all forgotten how to start a fire. This is why people OD on pills and jump from the Golden Gate Bridge. Anything ( Read more... )

today's the kinda day you feel totally useless. You've wasted the day.

I'm still so depressed about not even placing in NATS. My ajudication papers where horrible. There was maybe one good sentance in the whole thing. I just want to cry in bed all day. Maybe then I'll feel better.

i could make a dress ( Read more... )

I went through all my livejournal entries.

I am one whiney bitch.

'nuff said.