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I've been starting to get chest pains due to my stress; even though my mind can ignore it at times, it seems my body has its own way of reminding me. And my face has been hurting on and off since the weekend. The only way I know how to stop the facial pain is by smoking pot, but I haven't done that lately. That would be reserved for the pain ( Read more... ) -
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Sometimes I wonder what it would be like if I said "fuck this shit" and walked away from school and hopes of returning to the nursing profession- at least for now. Clearly I'm sick of studying and all the stress associated with this. I can dream. And who knows; maybe by this time next month, I'll have been booted out of the program. -
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Why is it that so much of becoming educated must be wasted on studying things we'll never need out there in the "real" world? Although I'm studying general nursing, I want to end up in a mental health setting again. I can memorize all this medical stuff until I'm blue in the face, but when it comes down to it, I won't be using these skills or ( Read more... ) -
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This is a time of "too much". I'll handle it as best as I can day by day and moment by moment to try to curb the anxiety. My plate is overflowing and I worry that this study/cram time won't be enough to make it through my course. I shouldn't have taken the time off that I did, even though I kind of needed it. I should not have enrolled in this ( Read more... ) -
Work (the good, the bad)
So I very easily got hired for that bar serving job. I dumbed down my résumé; all they need to know about my nursing experience is that I'm a student. I have a long history of serving and bartending; it's kind of my default. I'm not the best at it, but I can usually hold my own. Working in a bar is also easier than in a restaurant. It also has late ( Read more... ) -
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My one week off of studying is turning into three. I was OK with taking a 2nd week off; I was still waiting to hear back about school (still am in the process of playing phone tag) and enjoying the feeling of not being on the go while spending more time with the kids and being at home. S. was also home for the long weekend and we had friends over ( Read more... ) -
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I made a short list of things to do last night for today. I knew that if I could accomplish these things then I would feel less like shit today. One was to email the receptionist of the place that I hope to work; unfortunately I didn't have the contacts for those who interviewed me so hopefully emailing the receptionist who set up the interview is ( Read more... ) -
Abilify side effects
I just found a list of Abilify side effects which have confirmed my suspicions:
http://www.abilify.com/bipolar/tools/side-effects-checklist.aspx
If these feelings still persist once I find my optimum dosage level of Intuniv, I think it might be time for a change... -
mornings
Still on the low side, but it's getting better as the day goes on. Describing myself as "not a morning person" doesn't do any justice to the way I function in the AM. Thinking back to my teen years, I wasn't a morning person then either, but it seems that since I was hospitalized it's become difficult to wake up and get moving. I think it initially ( Read more... ) -
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Feeling like I'm more on the down side today.. I think it has to do with waiting to find out if I got that job or not (I'll call tomorrow or Friday if I don't hear back) and also waiting for someone from my RN Refresher program to call back to discuss how I might be able to complete the program. I've taken the week off from studying hoping that I ( Read more... )