here i stand or rather sit pondering why i feel the need to have the AC on when i can't feel my toes. school school schooly school. honestly i just need to go so that I can actually get some ideas and have models for free. Damn expensive nekkid people. Cause I really don't want to draw any nekkid friends. That would be awkward. it'd make me ( Read more... )

Ever heard the expression, stop kicking the dead cat. I'm sure there are many racial slurs based on this one. But god sometimes things have to be left alone and forgotten, if not for a little while, forever ( Read more... )

I'm a work aholic, hoorah. but other more exciting news, baron has made friends with the nieghbour and now sneaks out at night to go there and eat. oh yes and 'musk' for her two female cats. lol. I adore it. supposedly she's a very nice irish lady. imagine that irish ( Read more... )

Cest la vie, what can I do? If only I could break my icey calm...damn it all to hell. Paranoid as fuck of everyone else. Must open up to others and allow them access. I'm a darling sort and full of pepp but is that good enough for true civilized conversations ( Read more... )

I am so obsessed with the dead. It finds itself in my entertainment, my art, and even in my literary choices. I guess it's the knowing that it's immanent for us all but yet so taboo. Where will I go after I'm gone. I'm enjoying "dead like me"s approach, the own personal view of the afterlife. But in that version not even the reaper knows these ( Read more... )

Blah! I say, So tediously stiff is the situation. I want to wear a bunny hug but the blasted infernal forecast forbids it. No control over the present circumstance, not that I had any to relenquish. Insects as usual are starting to flourish, I assume that I will be taking my shoe to many of the little buggers. ehehe buggers... *sigh* I'll brush ( Read more... )

I ran and sped walked all the way to college and spadina this evening. Trying to work out my demons and my demented thoughts of despair. I assume it's sufficient enough of a release. But I'm so full of this dementia. I hate where I am in life along with my mindset. My heart is ever so much in the right place, but does that mean jack shit in the ( Read more... )

It's late I'm awake and feeling the necessity to tear my skin off my flesh. It's been along time since I've felt this way. I do need to communicate myself better to people but it's just so hard, too many question. Will they understand, can they relate, will they critisize me for my thoughts, will I make myself clear and believeable. Why do I have ( Read more... )

I'm so happy to hear that monica didn't disappear off the face of the earth. My mother just informed me that she's living at home agian with her rents and has a job at Zehr's I cna't wait to go to simcoe and see her I've missed her ever so dreadfully. We had so much and it all seemed to go away so quickly. I never wanted it to end that way, I wish ( Read more... )

I kinda feel like a loser I seem to have been fired, for not being able to sell A/C insurance. As usual I find that tensions high, of the forebearer of this is not personal. Bobble bobble, that's the method behind all the choices that have ever been made. Rationalizations lol. Fucking analogy.Crystal MIA again, suprise suprise. Locked behind ( Read more... )