ok I havent written on here in a really long time.. mainly been on the myspace or whatnot.. and thats all right I suppose. its all basically the same isnt it though. trying to figure stuff out.. like always. never can seem to get a hold of that.. whatever it is.. life I suppose.. I am hangin on by my fingernails.. but I think I will manage and that ( Read more... )

ah I am so sad.. I think I might start crying any minute..

I am so tired.. and worn out.. I have so many bills and no oppurtunity to get a job cause I am having to build a house in which to live in... geesh I mean whats a guy to do.. I cant keep a gf cause I guess I am a lame stupid freak or something blah.. I am just so mad at everything right now and I dont feel like doing other people homework when they ( Read more... )

ok its nine thirty.. and all I got to do is spin in my chair and wait on someone to talk... a couple people actually are tonight .. its amazing really.. oh yes everyone should check out a band called "collide" and a song called "razor sharp" not for everyone prolly.. but a friend sent me the link.. and I am enjoying them greatly... oh and I did ( Read more... )

where to begin? ok I was laying in bed the other night and for some reason I felt like I was drowning in a sea of uncertainty and weirdness. I am beging to question.. scratch that.. I am almost sure i am insane. and I think I would rather be insane than sane.. cause reality isnt fun for me at all... I have "many" friends.. I dunno why I put that in ( Read more... )

ok... well my computer crashed.. and before that I was in florida.. and before that ohio.. and before that.. well my last entry was done in ezel... or centerville I cant remember... but in any case I need to get caught up... and right now things arent going to terribly well... loads of things going on.. but some of them I dont want to talk about.. ( Read more... )

A twist in the dark ( Read more... )

ah yes I sit here and ponder my life.. such as it is.. bad grammer and the over use of elipses.. but thats me .. a thought and a pause... listen... and talk some more.. I have met some very interesting people online these days... and some off line as well.. through other people I know.. but now I wonder.. I like some many people in such a short ( Read more... )

ah its december.. getting closer to my birthday.. which is now only about two months away.. cause its at the end of january.. do I have hopes for a good birthday.. hardly.. cause unless I go out and get everything single person I want... and supply party stuffs.. no one is going to come.. how do I know this you might ask.. it was this way last year ( Read more... )

ok.. I spent like four hours on the phone last night lol.. it was effing awsome.. I am so gonna marry that girl.. we talked about it .. lol..ok.. not seriously as of this minute.. but later on in the futre perhaps.. but she is great.. very funny.. and we talked about everything.. well nearly everything.. had to leave something for tonight or today ( Read more... )