1. I have a job interview on Thursday. Wish me luck.

2. Me and John are going stronger than ever. :D Almost 10 months <3 ( Read more... )

you dont like my music ( Read more... )

i cant ever be myself i always have to alk in riddles or just deny things...even to myself. i am wrapped up in my own brain, wanting and wishing for things i cant have. it gets tiring, and i need to find a way out.

no one really reads this, but still this censorship. it seems to bind me.

im testing the waters
one foot
two
gentle rocking of the waves with my feet
will i freeze?
im trying to insure a warm place in your heart
friends?
yes
maybe more
but definitely not less
let me slowly find my footing
can i join you here?
say yes

take another ride on the sunshine valley

yard sale at my house tomorrow today. i hope i make some money.

thank you and goodnight

i wish i could go back in time
when the feelings felt so right
because now i feel wrong
now i dont know
now im confused
and i hate it

guess what? im not dead. hooray!

+ 4 days until John and I's 9 month anniversary

+ 15 days until Mest

damn, i never wrote in here like i said i would. had a really good time last night with my friends. i think i can consider katie and ben my friends only if i only see them a little bit sometimes. they are still cool and i love them. we danced in the toilet paper together and all was good. (dont ask ( Read more... )

i am not DEAD!

maybe ill write more later...

I'm not straight-edge. Getting drunk is just too much fun. I'm sorry I didnt leave any drunken messages here, I could copy and paste the amusing ones from my other blog, but eh...too lazy. I'm waiting to borrow Johns toothbrush. Cool,eh? then Rachel has to come back, its her birthday and so I'm at her house kickin it old school so my mom doesnt ( Read more... )