has just been an emotional roller coaster of anxiety and depression that I can't even begin to explain. Sometimes I feel like my mind is my own worst enemy. There's no way to escape who you are or the emotions that you feel, and sometimes that fact alone can make a man feel mad. I try hard to control it....I usually fail. Everyone is insane to some ( Read more... )

It's difficult to believe that it's been almost two years since my last update. A lot has happened since then. Too many peaks and valleys to count. I'll do my best at a brief summary. I moved, developed and kicked several drug addictions, found myself in a psych ward, came back home, Reunited with the love my life, moved again but this time she ( Read more... )

People always say that you'll never forget your first love. That's all well and good. I'd never want to forget her, but i wonder if I'll ever stop loving her. I just found out that I'm being broken up with or it's at least more than likely and of course, it sucks. But this was the first person i've dated since Elsa and what i feel now is ( Read more... )

guess who's not addicted to drugs anymore. That's right, this guy. It feels so....hmmm...what's the word i'm looking for....BORING! But at least i'm healthier than i was. Being a Dex head wasn't fun (for the second time) but i miss good drugs like Percocet, Loritab, Vicoden, Zanex, Aderall, Oxicotten, and the list goes on an on. However, this ( Read more... )

Animal collective is coming out with a movie. I need to look into getting some psychedelics by June 29th.

Wow. I haven't updated for quite some time. And even then, the entry didn't pertain to me. Yet, I've been sitting here for about ten minutes, blankly staring into the computer screen without a single idea of what i'm going to write. That's actually very depressing. Has my life become so dull that i can't even think of a few mundane paragraphs ( Read more... )

I might as well keep this updated as i write so here's the next segment to the story ( Read more... )

I kind of doubt anyone will actually take the time to read this. I just haven't updated in quite sometime so why not? Right now i'm still debating whether i should actually continue writing this into a full novel or leave it as a short story ( Read more... )

i'm very upset....i want blood and gore and guts in my teeth.................................why am i listening to Animal Collective? i honestly do not know. Why don't i stop now that i realize i shouldn't be? again, i am ignorant.

God is cruel, unmerciful, destructive, and ferocious
Jer 13:14/ Deut 7:16/ 1 Sam 15:2,3/ 1 Sam 6:19
God is kind, merciful, and good
James 5:11/ Lam 3:33/ 1 Chron 16:34/ Ezek 18:32/ Ps 145:9/
1 Tim 2:4/ 1 John 4:16/ Ps 25:8