confused, so fuckin' confused and when it all comes down to it why am i? why do i even care!? why do i care for her, why, why, why? I don't want to anymore, i don't want to feel vulnerable and like i can be shattered at any moment i just don't! fuck this shit! I QUIT!

Yeah, I'm standing next to a mountain contemplating jumping off, here it is the time of desicion, right or wrong just got to make a decision. Hurry the time is coming nearer a decision must be made, live or die, peace or war, suffering or peace, happiness or sadness, hatred or love, make a decision both cannot be had in this game. Yeah I'm standing ( Read more... )

Above and beyond ( Read more... )

"these broken cassettes and cigarettes will be the ones to save you ( Read more... )

So the facts are straight and the headaches are on high, god I must be high. But I'm more sober than I've been in months, so here's a cheers to being sober, with the headaches aching and the thoughts provoking my very being. So here's a cheers to three jack 'n' cokes, to the life we live, to the feelings of neglectance, procrastination, and ( Read more... )

So life in the big apple sure is different then in a small town nobody place. But I don't live really anywhere I wander about, best put in the title of a song "I wonder as I wander". The life we live is humurous. But anyways I'm in college now fulltime, don't really have much time to update and such.

I'm a fool for all the things I've said and done and mostly for the things I didn't say and do. The chances I had of the one thing I want the most in which in retrospect I know it was right there in reach but now, it seems so far away, I'll try and retrieve it, but it seems that fate doesn't wish it to be so some days, maybe someday it will be mine ( Read more... )

I Love Not Loving You ( Read more... )

Your eyes ( Read more... )

today has been one long bitter sweet day, i had a little while of good things followed by being screwed over twice within the time span of 2 hours, god bless it, i should've just shot myself, the only thing that kept me sane is that i took the TCOMP today and passed with a rather good score in the categories i got a rather high score in the writing ( Read more... )