well...... i said yesterday that i didnt have any installs today and that i was surprised....... well guess how surprised i was when i found out that i not only had an install today.... i had 2 of em...... yep. it was written in the main schedule... but not in chris' or my personal one..... man...... that was a big mistake. so today was a very dead ( Read more... )

well this was interesting...... i planed that friday we would have off.... but it ends up that today and tomorrow chris and i have nothing going on..... weird. I dont know how that worked out but it did...... i shouldnt get used to it though. next week is like packed from what i scheduled out. (i want money) but today went well..... i slept in late ( Read more... )

Ok, i didnt have time to properly say sorry to the people that i may have hurt last night by being depress. yeah, beleive it or not i was depressed. I guess i cant be chipper and happy 24-7 like everyone thinks that i can. But everyone who knows me knows that unless you severly hurt me, i get over things rather quickly. So im better and i want to ( Read more... )

Im very sorry the way i was acting last night, i wjust was thinking about lots of different things and it was bringing me into a depression..... then for no reason something inside me just popped and i was like, "wait a minute this isnt me" Then i read the lj that erin sent me, and i looked at the conversation that ashley and i had over IM and i ( Read more... )

god..... i have so much going on in my head and i just want to get it all out........... i dont know whats wrong with me.............

My life is not all i want it to be ( Read more... )

my life is fucked........... im hopeless....... i dont know why people try with me, im a lost cause......... all i do is cause more hate for myself...... on the outside im a very happy person, on the inside im a warzone.....

Well today was a pretty cool day. I got up at six as usual, *yes it is my day off, i had to do the summerschool duty again* and got online and talked to erin..... then stephi came over and got me with erins mom to go to the beach....... i got to drive her lincon.... it was pretty sweet..... her mom made me do it. we went to erins and got ready for ( Read more... )

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Well i just got back from erins house and ive got a problem.... im not going to say what it is because people on here could start shit and i ant going to let that happen..... and im feeling bad about it....she keeps telling me its ok but if its ok then why does it feel so not ok. i dont know what to do. I hope tony gets his crap together. But were ( Read more... )