i am so happy. 

 all the emotions and hurt i bottled up over the last year are bubbling over ( Read more... )

 are we destined to follow a predetermined path?
or are our lives only what we choose for them to be?
right now i don't know which one would be the less painful to accept.
the fact that i am not destined for better 
or the fact that my choices have led to my own shattered heart.

We're not going to make it..

So I'll cherish the time I have left with you.

I can't sleep anymore. This time is different ( Read more... )

 I feel so lost ( Read more... )

I'm not in a good mood today. Fuck my wandering mind.
The worst thing is not knowing something for sure.
Fuck this shit position you've put me in and the way you've been treating me.
I'm really wondering what if...

I need a fun night. That involves getting really drunk.

I imagine all the time how wonderful it would feel to run away and get married. Knowing that that was the one person in the world that you wanted to spend the rest of your life with. The one person you could trust more than anyone else and could feel comfort in their arms, to feel home in their arms no matter where you are in the world. A small ( Read more... )

 you've made me become someone that i don't want to be. 
obsessive unhappy petty weak

if freedom is what you want
then i will give it to you. 
i'm finally letting go, 
and sending out a search party to find myself again. 
I DON'T NEED YOU ANYMORE.

....i only need me. 

you will never find someone that loves you more than i.

and it couldn't be more frustrating that i can never take her place.