I've decided to make all my entries private. I know longer want the drama nor the nasty emails that come along with it. Thank you to all my live journal friends who have been here for me.

I have never been more heart broken in my entire life. I'm such a fool. I feel so stupid, and used. I'm the one sitting here crying my eyes out. I'm the one who gets the shitty end of the deal. I did everything, everything for this person. Yes, I was a lil jealous, but for good reason. I've never felt so lonely, scared, hurt, betrayed, ( Read more... )

It's amazing how easily some people can break a promise, how easily some people can just walk away. I'm tired of rebuilding myself, of puting the pieces back together. And to know that I was weak enough to let the same person break my heart and spirit twice makes it hard to even look at myself in the mirror ( Read more... )

Well it's Thanksgiving and I'm all alone as usual. Greg is moving out of the apartment and in with his Uncle who lives in melbourne. Oh well, there goes my apartment and everything I've worked so hard for.

My baby is coming home today, yay!!! I'm so happy. I miss him much. Hopefully we can work through some of our issues. Had a good talk last night about the online thing. We have come to an understanding. On line is one thing, now when he wants to meet these girls, they will know that he lives with me and we are a couple. Fuck the stuff he ( Read more... )

So here goes...I'm going to start making my journal public to get more advice. I'm a very angry girl. Not sure why. I have a wonderful boyfriend that I treat like shit, don't know why. I have a good job that I hate with all my heart and soul, not sure why. I wake up everyday angry, upset, worried, pissed off at the world. I wish I could take ( Read more... )

People seem to surprise me everyday. Take this morning for example. Dan (my baby's daddy) calls me. I tell him that I have some circus tickets, but can't afford to take David myself, so he calls me this morning and asks me if I need any money for anything. Of course I say "No, but thank you." He tells me "Don't be too proud, I know how you are ( Read more... )

So Greg and I are doing so wonderful. I'm so glad he moved down here. He started his new job today. I'm excited for him. I hope he enjoys it. He is going back to VA the end of this month. He's got some court stuff to take care of. I'm a lil worried about that. I hope it goes in his favor how ever that may be. I think we have two different ( Read more... )

What up, fools. I’m here to talk to the boys (and yeah, open-minded gals) in the class who want to learn how to keep a woman in a state of repeated orgasm for five to six hours. I mean multiple orgasm, one after another, for HOURS. It’s a technique I’ve developed -- technique, hell, insane and inhuman skill -- which I’ve had the privilege of using ( Read more... )

Lights go out and I can’t be saved ( Read more... )