What is this feeling of emptiness?
Why do I feel this hollowness?
Feeling so low, I must confess,
Not really up to my best.

There's a longing in my soul
for something more than this
A nagging at my heart
for something I had missed.

you were the one that broke the wall ( Read more... )

I have a saddness in me
that I cant let go
it eats at me daily
through wind, rain, and snow

I have a whole in me
deep as deep can be
nothing seems to mend it
it's as deep as the great blue sea

I have a maddness in me
that i cant control
it claws it's way up
and out of me it rolls

I weep inside,
never do i stop
i rage deep down
never do i stop

yep...I said it. fo sho. makes no real sense...but it's fun to use. :)

i'm glad for the numbness that's taken over. i cant feel a thing. right now, i wouldnt have it any other way.

I feel the distance between us...more, now, than ever...

I wonder why I put myself through this pain time and again? I let myself feel and it always ends up hurting me more than anything else. I hate being vulnerable. I need to stop that already. Close off my heart for awhile and let myself heal. I fear that I'm on a destructive path, which is no good. I have two babies to worry about. It's so ( Read more... )

Just curious to know what's up? I mean....What the fuck? What's on your mind? I dont have time for games. Silly games. I'm too tired for that. I have kids I need to worry about. Not your silly games. Where are we going with this? What do you want from me? Quit avoiding the subject and be straight with me. I just need to know. I need to

I have been in a wondering state of mind lately. Contemplating my life. What went wrong? What went right? Where have I been? Where am I going? What comes next? Interesting. We will see....

Spending a nice relaxing day with my boys. They are the sweetest little babies. I'm so happy I have them. Who better to spend my day with? The ones who love me most. If I'm lucky, I may spend some time with a special someone. We shall see....