i still love you and miss you terribly, yet you seem to have blissfully ignored and forgotten my existence...awesome ( Read more... )

i feel as though everywhere i turn i am looking into a mirror, though the reflection is always a past mistake laughing at my face...not really a funhouse at all, but nightmares' manifestation....happy october?

what do you do when your life seems to stop but the world keeps on turning?

i'm stuck in a rut, and while i'm struggling to break free, everything around me is changing and i feel like i can never keep up. what gets me the most is, most of these changes haven't even sunk in yet... what happens to me when they do?

Ob-la-dee, ob-la-dah, life goes on, oh!..la la la la life goes on..

*well, i suppose it has to anyways. For better or for worse, it always does. I just wish I had my friend back in the process..

As of tomorrow, my life will have to be put on hold for a few weeks, as i've become the primary caregiver to my mother and brother. It's not that I don't love them and wouldn't choose to be with them otherwise, i just wish these circumstances weren't so extreme. Mom is going in for surgery tomorrow, hopefully to get rid of most of the cancer. they' ( Read more... )

one of these days i'm not going to make it back; i won't wake up.. i'm running constantly, wishing to escape, and i think soon i finally might.. yet in the meanwhile, i run in circles and lose myself, confused, staring wild eyed at my own fading reflection.. when will Life be through with me ( Read more... )

Drown out the voices ( Read more... )

I am a rock, I am an island.....and a rock feels no pain..... and an island never cries..

*it's really too bad i have nerves and tear ducts.

I had to stop and ask myself today a question i knew i have not yet discovered the answer to; if i could turn back time, would i? there are definetly moments i would like to change, actions i wish i could take back... but what about everything i've learned from my mistakes disappeared? everything i've come to realize about my past actions? If i ( Read more... )

I continually find myself swimming through an ocean of questions, yet never able to grasps any answers. I feel them watching me, occasionally taking small bites out of my flesh, but the moment i know of their prescence, they disappear without a trace., leaving me confused, lost and alone, more so than i was before ( Read more... )