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My angel has arrived!
Lily Jean Bell was Born November 3rd, 2008 at 2:11 am, weighing in at 9 pounds and .76 ounces, measuring 21 and 3/4 inches long.. After 29 hours of labor, she entered the world bright eyed and beautiful, via ceserean section, as after 2 hours of pushing, she just wouldn't leave mommy's tummy. She only let out one cry as she was taken from her cozy ( Read more... ) -
How does a light that burned so brightly, suddenly turn so pale?
Wow. I can't believe I only have about another 30 days until I get to hold my beautiful baby girl--(Trust me, I know she will be beautiful) I feel so ready, yet so unprepared. Ready, because I am so uncomfortable in my rotundous state and she seems to have decided pummeling my ribs and pelvic area are alot of fun. I feel I'm unprepared, because ( Read more... ) -
new year, new fear
I hate that i constantly find myself unable to express anything. i'm not one to verbally open up to anybody, if i do open myself, it's through written expression. but this is no longer useful, as it becomes subjected to even harsher critisms, missing correct inflections and tone, and is so often misconstrued to be something it is not. No matter ( Read more... ) -
the meaning of life..
.. i have still not found for myself, yet, recently i have stopped persuing that answer with as much persistance as i once did, as i am so content.. Ignorance really is bliss, i must say. and so is finding someone that no matter what the day brings, they can just hold you and worries melt away.. it's fucking fantastic ( Read more... ) -
it's nice to know you're missed..
but it's sad to know you're not ( Read more... ) -
yeah man.
Moving in with someone you love.. is an awesome thing. Nothing could be better than falling asleep and waking up in comforting arms, first and last images putting your mind at ease... And all is right in the world..
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**though there are a lot of things and situations that really suck, I LOVE MY LIFE -
sounds of sorrow, waves of joy
I still don't know what I'm doing with my life. But one thing is certain for the time being, and that is I've found someone I wouldn't mind spending all that time of contemplation with. Someone, that though he doesnt know me well at all, understands me to an extent further than anyone else ever has. And I also get him. We've both been through Hell ( Read more... ) -
When it gets cold outside and ain't got no one to love..
Naturally, sitting at work again, bored as ever, though i amazingly enough only have an hour and some change left to go. So many things running through my mind at this point. i honestly don't know where to start. one could be sarcastic and say 'the beginning', but how does one decifer the start of things that happened all at once, so fast you ( Read more... ) -
'i'm what'?
If only I could grab a hold of myself, for just a moment, look myself directly in the face and say, "what the hell is going on with you?" yes, i realize this can be done somewhat with the assisstance of a mirror, but really, if i could grab my own face (not with my own body, with another --sorry if i can't help you understand) and shake sense into ( Read more... ) -
lost in space, but not in place..
Up and down the merry-go-round ( Read more... )