Needed to write this out to think about it properly and get it out of my brain. On the Book of Face, one of my friends had made a comment on a Dr Phil status asking people what they think about open marriage. So, I went over and sifted through some of the comments. Gah, so should not have done that!!! What struck me though is that for the ( Read more... )

For some time now I have been thinking that I really would like to widen my friendship circle, but I find that it is not that easy to do. I am not good at making friends. I do not find it difficult to get along with people in general, but when it comes to then moving them to a point where we spend extra time together, and become friends per say, ( Read more... )

New word - Meh-ness. Essentially what I have been feeling today. There is just a sense of something missing, of there being a hole inside me that is not being filled somehow. I miss my people. I want to be surrounded by the people I love and who love me and just bathe in that feeling of connectedness for awhile. And so, with all these thoughts ( Read more... )

... and it completely crept up on me this year. I was busy, then I did a bit of the shopping, and a bit of the organising, but not enough. And here I find myself, very tired, and no Christmas tree up, no gingerbread baked, no shortbread baked, only one present wrapped, so very far behind. And it is Christmas Eve Eve tomorrow. I have lots to do ( Read more... )

School is over, no contract for next year ... yet. Not sure if I am happy about that or really worried, or ambivalent. Something to contend with another time I think. Currently just happy to be on holidays with no stress. Except there is stress at the moment. Christmas is just around the corner and I have barely lifted a finger towards it. There ( Read more... )

I am not sure why I am writing. I should, instead, be chilling out in bed or doing some marking, or washing, or something constructive. I dont even have anything of any import to say. I just need to make words. A superfluous post if ever there was one. Pointless, unnecessary, without reason ( Read more... )

So I find that again, when Jeremy is away, my sense of purpose and desire to achieve anything saps away. So I find myself sitting in front of the computer, fart-arseing around, instead of doing my work. I have marking to complete, parent-teacher interviews to plan for, tomorrow's lessons to check over, and yet, here I am with my books in the ( Read more... )

So I have been thinking ... really ( Read more... )

What an amazing night last night. What was supposed to be a normal Nanna Night of knitting and generalised nattering, turned into a seven hour talk-fest with Miss Bec. And how much did I need that!! So nice to sit and normalise all my feelings and thoughts that have been buzzing around for the last 3-4 months ( Read more... )

So here I am, stuck without a voice, and it has left me sitting in my own mind, thinking more than usual. But not in a bad way, which is a nice change. And tonight I have been thinking about my current state of enforced silence and I am reminded of how often I have wondered what it would be like to stop the chatter. And here I am. Wish granted? ( Read more... )