5 minutes of driving inside my head

[sixen]

"Ok, breathe, breathe, breathe, breathe. Everything is fine. Hands on the wheel. Ok, where are your hands supposed to be again? 10 o'clock and 2 o'clock right? No, no, no. Its 4'oclock and 8 o'clock! Remember, they changed it because of the air bags and you don't want the airbag to blow your thumbs off. Oh gee, that happened in the one file I

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[yume_no_tenshi]

I'm proud of you for getting back out on the road. My fear of driving/traffic/cars after my bad accident in childhood has prevented me from ever even obtaining my license.

Like I always tell people: I can operate a vehicle, but I can't drive in traffic. Give me a car at three in the morning and tell me to go somewhere and I can... traffic absolutely terrifies me.

[sixen]

Traffic is terrifying isn't it? Its like they've made the lanes so tiny but all the vehicles are too big for them.

I didn't know that you had been in a bad accident too. I was reading an article that said motor vehicle accidents are the leading cause of post traumatic stress disorder. There are a lot of us out there.

Some of the stores are open 24 hours right before Christmas and I'm thinking of going at 2 am. No traffic and no people to knock me over in the store either.

[yume_no_tenshi]

And when those big 18-wheelers are anywhere close to the car, I panic, even if I am not the one driving, because who knows if they even see you... *shudder*

I was in an accident when I was 13. The only thing hurt was my face. My nose was sliced through one nostril and through the middle part and was hanging off my face by a little slice of skin and cartilage. My cheek was sliced nearly all the way through, and I still don't have feeling in a lot of it.

It was nowhere near the trauma that you had to go through, I'm sure, but it happened two weeks before I started at a new high school and if I heard, "what happened to your face?" once, I heard it a thousand times.

Going shopping at two in the morning sounds like a good idea. *nodnod*

[hardcasecrime]

sounds like me when i drive. i'm prone to panic attacks.

[sixen]

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I disassociate when I drive but I panic when my husband drives - I'm really bad in the dark. It is difficult isn't it?

[hardcasecrime]

it is! driving is horrid sometimes.

[cleotyne]

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And yet you DO it. That's so amazing. You're an incredible person.

[sixen]

thanks Cleo. It means a lot to hear that from an amazing person. I try to keep things like your avatar in my mind. There was a time when pretending to drive was fun for me.

[neonrose5]

Ya know.. despite being anxius about it.. you did it!! Congradulations!! Yay You!

[sixen]

Yep. I'm trying to concentrate on the fact that I do it rather than how I feel while I'm doing it. I gave myself a little treat that day too (new bottle of black nail polish) :-)

[neonrose5]

Awesome.. You should concentrate on your sucesses.. you may not have felt good doing it, But you DID do it! Good for you! :)
& good idea on the reward. :)

Where did you go btw?