hurray for mental breakdown. first time for everything i guess. i was physically and mentally gone. it was at basketball practice too. my brother didn't do much to help me calm down either. my apologies to everyone who was there ( Read more... )

he told me he loved me. he means this. i told him i simply can't say it until i back it completely. heart, mind and soul. i cried tonight in a van while he walked away to his house it's fine though. everything will be okay ( Read more... )

yep, i am definately thinking of you. you ruined my plans because i didn't want to stay up late.

there was a ship. it's didn't have a bottom and there were holes in the sides. this didn't matter to the little girl in the blue dress. she took the ship under her arm and made it better. it was a toy ship, of course. made of plastic and wax. the sail was real canvas, and a previous owner had painted a picture of a tree on it. so she took up her ( Read more... )

"if you actually know how to love her-though she can be bitter-she can flood your soul with light, all of your soul!"

saw it for the first time tonight. i was definately only half awake but that's how i learn everything. it was an alright movie. it made me sad ( Read more... )

with my face smooshed up against glass
there i noticed that in the end there won't be any fear

i'm not miserable nor am i estatic. everyone is asking me what's wrong and i think it's just because when they look at my face they see a empty white page. it's no longer filled with passion or new dreams. i am just in this area, this mental state that seems to make me content with everything but i know i'm not. i smile at you but secretly there's ( Read more... )

i went downtown today with my friend kim. it was awesome. we had a very productive day. the most productive ever when going up north! yahoo. i miss hanging out with her i think we're gonna hang out a lot more when i don't have basketball. i bought new shoes. they kick your shoes ass. maroon vans. yep vans. trendayyy ( Read more... )

something is really missing. outta place, unwanted, and in tears?
call 1 800 NIRVANA

it's been a crappy week. losing friends is never a fun task. i didn't even do anything but something ended. that's all. maybe someday my intellect and passion will fight it out.

i told him he was beautiful, he said that was the first time anyone has ever said ( Read more... )