I think this 'conscientiousness' thing doesn't work for me.

I started on the books WAY early this semester, i.e. during the first week, albeit at a very slow pace. But it got me thinking that I've been studying a lot so I never did go on to pick up the pace. In fact, got complacent and lost every bit of urgency. Worst happens when I get completely ( Read more... )

Like a moth to a flame burned by the fire

Honestly, I have no end in sight ( Read more... )

Busy updating my phone with apps I just discovered after more than a year when I realized my phone deleted the bulk of my old texts beyond this may and only left a random few?!! Hello I clearly selected to store 'forever', bloody hell... these things always happen to me. But I'm surprisingly calm... the last time this happened with my previous ( Read more... )

Sometimes I wish I would live less cautiously, jump right into things, and leave all the regrets for another day, or better still be able to convince myself that none of it came to matter.

 “Does it work? Are they happier dead?”
“Sometimes. Mostly, no. It’s like the people who believe they’ll be happy if they go and live somewhere else, but who learn it doesn’t work that way. Wherever you go, you take yourself with you. See what.I mean?”
- The Graveyard Book by Neil Gaiman

pms...

I FUCKING HATE LIFE RIGHT NOW

I feel like applying for leave of absence from school after this semester... because I currently feel like I'm being driven up the wall. Of course that means running away for a while, the theme of all my plans. But the thought of coming back to one more semester which sounded partly comforting at first now sounds more like dread. The active part of ( Read more... )

Hi you can call me stupid.

Don't think I deserve to do anything other than study the rest of the semester away.

......on the other hand I feel like giving up.

Why is it that cat and I seem to be the only ones perpetually up to our necks in work. Maybe its cos I haven't really devoted this much priority of time to academics in my life, even in preparation for major exams. But I'm not even talking about being conscientious about readings and keeping up with the syllabus, and it feels like even occupying ( Read more... )