it's been almost a year since i posted to the old lj ( Read more... )

sometimes i just find myself so monumentally depressed... and it's just the fucking pits, man.

ooh sometimes i have feelings so feeling-y that they make me want to puke. 

wish i were better at this whole "dating" thing. too much pressure!!!

here's the thing about being an aupair... you learn all of these great little tidbits about childrearing that you'd never think of pre-child... which not only makes this job the best birth control ever, but also makes me realize how NOT GUILTY i feel about not wanting children ( Read more... )

so, i just want to remember how it feels to be in love.
to be with a person who looks at me "that way".
to embrace someone and have it almost hurt with emotion.

...it has been so long, i'm beginning to forget
i'm beginning to feel like that kind of feeling is something of which we only dream.

it's a little disconcerting how easy it is to sleep with celebrities in Spain...
...all i'm saying.

i just wish you knew how much you meant to me...
...and how much it hurts to know i didn't mean anything to you.

i leave for madrid in 25 days... and i am proud to say that i have paid my dues and made good on my persistent promises to get out of here (for once less bark than bite ( Read more... )

1. i am more than a hole ( Read more... )