im soooooooo excited!!!yay im gunna have a good weekend anyways in 2 weeks im goin ta hawaii how kick ass is that! then i get back and do an intensive dance class and then i go to new york on the 6- 12 and then i go to LA on the 16 then i dont know ..... hmmmm ( Read more... )

i think im gunna have a nervous breakdown im so crzy omg please sum1 just like do somethin kill me i hate this fuckin A i cant cry anymore no matter how shitty i feel its so weird i just cant cry i dont know wats wrong with me anymore who am i wats going on?

ok so i finally figured out how to add photos so heres sum pics from grammys!


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u no wats really fun but really weird at the same time taking sleeping pills and tryingto stay awake cuz then like ur mind is slowing down so wen u try to run u feel like ur walking and hten if ur me u fall over and then u go on a laughing spree lol im so weird i had my anxiety testing i got 50$ for it (u no likethose little survey thingys) i think ( Read more... )

Smoke?: no
Do drugs?: no
Read the newspaper?: yea
Pray?: no
Go to church?: no only like russian xmas and easterbut then again i cant understand the service anyways cuz its all in russian
Talk to strangers who IM you?: um sure
Sleep with stuffed animals?: yea it makes up for the real animals i cant have Take walks in the rain?: ha ha i take walks in ( Read more... )

Encounter with father today: Quinns 18th bday was yesterday and we celebrated with my dad today … all I could think about is how much better they treated quinn his birthday was a pleasure for them to celebrate it was just like another task for mine I don’t know wat I can do to make them actually respect me all I ever was was loving to them wen ( Read more... )

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ha ha i got sleeping pills yesterday my drs like now dont try to stay awake after u take them u like start to dream before u fall alseep and it will like freak u out ha ha i got a sleep test last night i had abut 30 wires hooked in to me last night and then i had like a tube go down my nose and into my throaght and yea pain!! i should go tho cuz im ( Read more... )

fuck im grounded sry i havnt ben online or like updating but yea dunno wen im guna b ungrounded so yea ttyl