tomorrow is zach's birthday and ima try to make it the most special day! he's spending the night [when doesnt he?] lol. And first we're going to his mom's and then who knows but we're coming back here at night and... ya know ( Read more... )

heh im so bored right now. im waiting for zach to get here cuz he's spending the night again. lol we've seen each other everyday since i got back from west virginia. i wanna do something soon with one of my friends though. cuz i havent seen a lot of them in a long time and i dont want them to ferget about me :'(. which they prolly will end up doing ( Read more... )

Ugh i dont know whats wrong with me today. i feel really depressed. it's prolly cuz im gonna miss zach more than anything in the world. I really hope he doesnt fuck around on me when im gone. If he does i dont know what i would do...prolly end up trying to kill myself again. god i really need to stop being so attached to him i mean he means ( Read more... )

ugh last night i couldnt get any sleep. i woke up around 4 and i started throwing up outtah no where. my brother took me to the bathroom and was talkin to me until i was done. sucha sweetheart ( Read more... )

damn... i cant take this anymore! Tanaya is such a fucking pathetik bitch who needs to fucking get a damn life and stay the fuck outtah mine ( Read more... )

god damn its soo fukin hot! i wish i lived in canada er something. people are really starting to get on my nerves. oo fuking delilah thinks i lyed to her about shit well she can just kiss my ass cuz one thing its none of her bussiness i dont even talk to her ass so why the hell would she care plus i didnt fuking lie abotu shit and her story that ( Read more... )

damn i'm really bored! Zach's at his friend's house right now prolly swimming naked with a bunch of guys which wouldnt surprise me lol. i cant wait to go to west virginia. but im gonna miss zach a lot.Im on the phone with bridgette and i think she;s gone insane cuz she's been at her house alone fer the whole day and you know what that can do to a ( Read more... )

zach wanted to take a break with me today so i could get my "freedom" but thats not how i want it. i wanna be my own person but have him in my life. he thinks just becasue i want freedom that means i dont wanna be with him but thats bnot even close to being true. and now fer some stupid tanaya wants to come after me i have no idea why but im about ( Read more... )

I dont know whats wrong with me. i feel left out but i feel like im the one whose leaving myself out of everything. everythings always my fault. grr dammit.

well i fixed my journal around...does it look nice?

i miss almost everyone i feel so isolated. but tomorrow im hanging otu with cassie for once yay! hehe.

Damn i wish i didnt have so many rules and/or restrictions on my life. but oh well i geuss thats how it is. sometimes i get jealous of people like jen and ashley and cassie cuz they get more freedom then me and ugh i just dontk now what to do anymore. i feel so trapped. i wanna be able to talk to whoever i want i wanna be able to hang out with ( Read more... )