so its been a while but not a whole lot has changed.

things are getting A LOT better with the roomie.. and i know most of you dont really know whats been going on. but i've been getting better at standing up for myself.

easter was interesting first family get together without my grandmother. it was tough. but i know shes in a better place with my ( Read more... )

do you remember those days when you were younger. 
when all you wanted to do was spend a day with your grandmother.
you've always loved how shed always spoiled you.
never letting your parents know how many cookies she let you have.
never letting your parents know that she let you watch t.v. all day.
i certainly do.

do you remember the walks you took ( Read more... )

so the finals week begins.. and then the stress comes flowing from ALLLLLL directions.. not sure how i'm going to deal with all of this..
never really been a great studier.. i get caught sidetracked most of the time.. looks like i'll be in the lib. all days of next week.. cant be near a computer. or i'll be online talking to people.. playing hearts ( Read more... )

so its been a while since i've last written in here ( Read more... )

when i say i dont know.. i DONT FUCKING KNOW ( Read more... )

soo aperantly i cant do anything right anymore.. i just screw things up on a regular basis.. i cant show emotion too well.. and apperantly i dont care enough.. i guess i'm just a faliure in life.. well in his eyes.. 
its tough you know fighting with you best friend/ boyfriend.. i wouldnt advise it.. and its also hard when you cant read minds.. so it ( Read more... )

and i mess up yet again... :-/

i'm just gonna leave it at that...

mmmkay so i havent updated in a LONGG time:-/ srry guys

but last night was new years eve and Billy and Sara's wedding :-D finally haha it was absolutly AMAZING sara looked gorgeous and she was already crying walking down the aisle with her father.. but the reception was pretty funny... 250 people.. makes a  long line for food haha... but  her ( Read more... )

soo we had the "Christmas Show" today.. umm can we say DISASTER!!! AHHHHHH!!!! haha yeah i fell on my ass.. that was funny.. hmm NOT!!

we're dead tomorrow cuz we have a THREE hour practice with her.. KILL me NOW!!!! blahhhh

but other than that i've been in a good mood.. :-)

soo i'm gonna go take a shower now.. and then get food and then go to ( Read more... )

1. smoked a cigarette - no

2. smoked a cigar - no

3. crashed a friend's car - no

4. stolen a car - nope

5. been in love - i am

6. been dumped - yes

7. taken shots of alcohol - nope

8. been fired - no

9. been in a fist fight - no

10. snuck out of your house - no

11. had feelings for someone who didn't have them back- yes

12. been arrested -nope

13. made out ( Read more... )