more like i'd rather live in las vegas. will,nick,varick,ronnie,my cousin tommy and i all went to vegas on friday night and got back last night. that shit was so fuckin tight. everyone was sayin how i'm gonna be bored when i was there b/c im not 21. man,i'm not really trying to gamble my money off and fuck the clubs and bars, we had the parties ( Read more... )

oops did i say crappy valentines. im sure the rest of you are having very happy valentines. so i'm posting today to give shout outs to all the single people out there, for today isn't valentines...it's singles appreciation day! dammit, and say it proud ( Read more... )

alot of people ask me why i never update this thing. i guess it's because nothing but shitty things have been going down and i never felt like complaining or bitching about it b/c i try to take a step back, look at the next person and tell myself that they have way bigger problems or situations to deal with.i just rough it out,pick up my bags and ( Read more... )

today was mediocre, spent most the day w/ family. it was hard to have a good time i've just been so stressed out from whats going on with beth to the 1,000$ debt i owe. so today was sort of a downer. then i realize that the money situation will get better in time, and as far as beth... i remember her telling me part of the reason she thought i didn ( Read more... )

i feel so empty when i'm not with her, when i can't hold her like i did before. in 19 years she was the only person to make me feel the way i do, the only real happiness i knew. for months i cut myself off from her due to my own personal issues with pain and dealing with her not being around. i knew that in some way it would be the best route, and ( Read more... )

wow-this thing hasnt seen me in months. since april i've been in and out of relationships,somehow managed to keep my job at kaiser this whole time,started school in august,mom's surgery went ok, unfortuneatly lost some family members. i've been making alot of money from my art. just little side jobs to bring in some cash and do what i love doing. ( Read more... )

my mom was all talking about how she didnt wanna die and she said she hasnt even gotten to see me go to school yet at the dinner table, im like "WTF?!" . i found out shes having surgery tomorrow for a tumor that i never heard about in her breast.she'll find out tomorrow if she has cancer. her step mom back in el salvador has been suffering from it ( Read more... )

It all starts back in high school, maybe even our middle school years. This notion of never really wanting to be alone in this world. We start by merely meeting a cute girl who might sit somewhere near you in social studies or that girl you always asked for help in whatever math it was. You knew the answers all along, but wanted that excuse to talk ( Read more... )

i still miss beth. since my last post we were cool w/ eachother again and then we (broke up it looks like for good)if u can really call it breaking up since there was never an officialized title- but it still hurts b/c i still cared and im sure she did too. i guess i somewhat took her for granted. now that she's gone its just been sucking. im ( Read more... )

because i love her.