Well, I'm done with high schoo. For good. As in I graduated. I still can't believe it. Now I gotta figure out what to do with the rest of my life. I'm not so sure what I wanna do. I'm still kind of confused. And I'm so insecure. And I'm so scared too. Now I have to stand on my own two feet. By myself. I fee like I'm walking out into the world ( Read more... )

I know that when reality hits me, I'll be devasted. However, I have the right to dream. Until I know for absolute certainity that Ian and I will never be, then I'll give up all hope. And only then....

I can't seem to get back to normal now that Ian is gone. I can keep faking my happiness though. I still cry myself to sleep. I still miss him. And I'm still totally depressed. I don't think anyone can possibly understand what I'm going through right now. I've been hearing the same replies over and over again. "you'll see him again" "it was nice of ( Read more... )

Prom was awesome. I had a blast. So did Ian. And that's all that matters. Now my life is just depressing without him ( Read more... )

I might as well just say that I practically cried myself to sleep last night. Ian's leaving for home today. I already miss him and he hasn't even left yet. I'm going to be so heartbroken for the longest time. It's just not fair. I sincerely love him. And now he has to go back home. And to make matters worse, he might be moving to North Carolina. ( Read more... )

So I finally got my lead down for "Octopus's Garden". It took me only a few days to get it back. I just don't have it back up to speed yet and that frusterates me ( Read more... )

Spring break is coming to an end. I'm probably the most happiest person ever about that. That only means that there's 12 days and a wake up until Prom. I saw an updated picture of Ian and he died his hair. Noooooooooo! I love his hair blonde. It looked good on him. I've also noted that he has blue eyes. I'm having this weird obsession with blue ( Read more... )

Everything is going pretty well for me. I can't really complain about my life right now. Ian is going to Prom with me. Got my report card the other day and it's simply awesome. Aside from my D in Photography, but I can easily bring that up this quarter. I don't need that credit anyways...I only need two more to graduate. I love my dress for Prom ( Read more... )

It seems like Prom is taking forever to get here. I'm trying everything I can to keep my life busy. I'm going to the Acada-Me-Awards with Amanda on Monday, Tuesday we're going to Huhot for dinner, Wednesday I have no choice, but to go to Wheelchair basketball for my leadership class. Sarah will be there so at least it won't be so bad. Then that ( Read more... )

I have incredibly awesome news. Ian is going to prom with me. Yup, you all heard correct. Ian said that he's going to drive down, which means we can go in his Mustang. I'd pick a Mustang over a limo any day. I already bought my prom dress two weeks ago, and unfortunately, it is once again blue. However, it has a purplish tint to it, so we're ( Read more... )