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booooooo
so, once again, i am in an utter state of emotional turmoil. i dont know what to do about paden. i can feel his emotion there, i could cut through it with a knife... or some blunt object... like a spoon. but, i dont know what to make of it. hes a relationship phobe, just like me. hes scared to make a move and i wont make the first move which ( Read more... ) -
FTW?!
ahhh, fool me once, shame on you. fool me twice, shame on me. i did it again, i trusted paden, again, and i got burned. i love that i fear emotional pain and broken trust more than almost anything, and when i pop my head out of my little rabbit hole, i get it bitten off, everytime. so, i was supposed to meet paden on sunday to teach him a little ( Read more... ) -
what should i do?
oh how the times they are a changing. so paden's me, nut male. i knew that, knew that he did the same thing i did, but hes much more like me than i thought, and that almost makes me fall for him again, almost. he wants me to teach him, and at first i thought it was a kinda neat idea; if he has this ability, he should learn to use it, right? but ( Read more... ) -
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yay! so ive been in a dizzy vision state all weekend, and a weird weekends its been indeed. but i know that at least one aspect of my predictions was wrong, so maybe some more are too. i liked the way rob explained it: that the visions maybe true, just with someone else. he says that i need to just take the visions, let them come as they will. ( Read more... ) -
oi vey
i really dont know why im writing right now. i should be sleeping, or studying; i have three papers and two midterms this week, and then its a week off ( Read more... ) -
destiny is calling me
i hate that im so weak sometimes. i realize now that if i reach forth my hand he'll take it, and i really want him to. but at the same time i know our happiness would be short lived. this summer my handfasted is supposed to return to me, and i'll go to him without a second thought. so i can't take this boy from a girl he's happy with. i think ( Read more... ) -
i hate everything about you, why do i love you?
i cant sleep. again. as i bring myself back to the bosom of the goddess, again i feel myself prophesying. but the last batch of visions i had never came true. or was i supposed to wait for them? i dont know. my head hurts with thinking of them all again; or maybe its just the foundation of another sinus headache that pains my skull. i feel the ( Read more... ) -
grr, argh, ahh
SO, I haven't written in this thing i years (lterally) and I doubt anyone actually still used their LJ's, but I need to write, and this is the most available area. I read through all my old entries today as a mean to procrastinate on my philosophy paper, and i realized i was cracked out in highschool. i was so worried about kelin and my life that ( Read more... ) -
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not much happening in the magical lanf of jesyness ( Read more... ) -
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and me im sittin sittin on top of the world
cold mountain makes me cry
you will be my ain true love is stuck in my head
and i am finally free, i mean it, my horoscope told me so :)