Right before you kicked that chair,
Did it cross your mind
that I still cared?
Depression like a blindfold
Stretched across your eyes.
Stitched from secrets untold
And a tangled spool of lies.

If only I'd have reached my hand
Further than what
I first planned.
Perhaps I could've saved you
From the eclipse of annexed light.
But what was I supposed to do
When ( Read more... )

I don't know how it happened. I was looking for the usual. Quick date with a friend of a friend, the possibility of feuling my "promiscuity", and move on... right? It didn't take much more than that first date to know what I'd done. One step into the quicksand; but not too deep, just enough to play and pull my foot back to safety. And then a second ( Read more... )

Do you remember that day?
When I was so clean, so pure.
It's hard for me to say
Pure? I'm no longer sure.
You used me as a rag,
Wipe, stain, then toss it out.
All the thing's I could've had
Lost, and never to be found.
Now, you may have beat me,
But you will never win.
I won't be found weeping,
I'll kill you for your sin.
Maybe one day they'll find you
Dead, ( Read more... )

Secrets

Let's keep this a secret;
Don't tell a soul.
I've done it, I've seen it
I'm out of control.
Faces of hatred
And hearts made of coal.
I can't say I've made it
It's taken its toll.
Hiding in clouds
Blinded by dust.
I just don't know how
To do what I must.
I'll never look
If you never tell.
The strength it took
To stay out of Hell.
Break me down
Build me back ( Read more... )

Death lurks near, waiting. i feel like I'm travelling throught a forest on a starless night, during a lunar eclipse, under a canopy of spying leaves. No ligiht travels through. I feel lost and hopeless, running into trees searching for a way out, a way to the light. Somewhere close behind, Death stalks me; I can hear his foot falls breaking twigs ( Read more... )

Maybe it's just me, but it feels like the world keeps spinning, keeps rotations, and time keeps moving forward, and I'm stuck ere, waiting for the world to take me with it. But no, I'm frozen here in time, I can't move forward and I sure as hell can't move back. S I'm just gonna sit here and wallow in my misery. My sad pitiful misery that I have no ( Read more... )

Terrifying, horrible, nightmares. 2:00 am and I cant sleep. Everytime I close my eyes, the image is pressed into my eyelids. It's him, my rapist. And he's smiling. And me? Well I'm hiding in the bathroom, crying, telling myself to pull it together, not to give him the satisfaction. These nightmares are honest history. Let's back-track a bit shall ( Read more... )

Who knew that evil could be so beautiful ( Read more... )

5-30-09
Close my eyes, if only for a moment, to make them disappear.
But open them not, for my nightmares exist both in sleep and wake
Though even with my eyes sealed tight, I can still hear you
I can hear your whispers, screams, judgments, demands.
And I will you to stop.
Sometimes will alone is not enough
Sometimes, there is nothing I can do.

Who knew that evil could be so beautiful?
ike snow flakes of flames floating down upon earth.
A city vocered in the most attractive hell.
And as I walk through this blizzardy meadow,
The bone chilling frost sinks in, numbing. Numbing.
Numbing my soul, my heart, my mind, my everything.
And then, I simply fall; fall into this nothingness,
Pure white ( Read more... )