Dear my ex-best-friend ( Read more... )

i'm alive and this time, im not going to disappear again. the last two years have been spent basically digging myself out from underneath six feet of frozen solid dirt. ironically, i came out pretty damn clean, in both senses ( Read more... )

been in montreal for a long while now. i managed to get into a welfare program again, so its half school, half work. i have adams dog, dora, cuz he got deported a while ago. ill have her til he comes back in the spring. i got a place too, in yet again, antoher crackhouse. id like to say its warm, but the heat doesnèt work and i managed to get ( Read more... )

we're in halifax for two weeks now. dan is in montreal now to pick up his welfare, but he'll be back soon. it rains alot here, and when its not raining, its so damn humid that NOTHING ever dries. money is decent, although it was easier living off the savings from winners. i injected the last of the rent money, but still hoping to get welfare ( Read more... )

i got into halifax a few nights ago, with dan and tamara. spent the last month in montreal, so coming back to a 'smaller' city is a little bit of a culture shock again. we've decided to look at some places and maybe settle here. dan wants me to be clean and he expects it right away and that's really hard for me and he doesn't understand that. he ( Read more... )

i got the rest of my tattoo finished today. it hurt just as much as i remember it hurting last week, only it took even longer today. i was ALMOST in tears. a BIG ALMOST. NOW, it is done and it looks ALOT better than it did, THANK GOD! i thought it was gunna be worse ( Read more... )

ATTENTION ALL JOB SEARCHERS!!! WINNERS NEWMARKET IS HIRING LIKE --MAAAAAD-- RIGHT NOW. we just lost like, six employees, including myself, all fulltime, and they are desperately looking to hire people. all you gotta do is bring in a resume and write out an application. its honestly not THAT bad of a job. PLUS, they fired all the old lady bitches ( Read more... )

i think ive decided to go back to montreal. i think by now, if i haven't had the urge to conform and live like yuppie scum, i never will. having odd jobs every so often isn't terrible, but to work fulltime, 9-5pm for the rest of my life? its seems totally unreasonable. so, im trying to talk to my mother about it. she's ignoring me. she knows what ( Read more... )

i seriously need to figure some shit out. come may, i have the choice of going back to the streets of montreal, with dan, and with heroin, or find another place, here in newmarket, and keep my job. although the choice i make seems easy to anyone else, i prefer montreal, and dan, and heroin, and freedom. it makes me sick that i have to take "sick ( Read more... )

my hair has been bleached three times in the last week. two times was alright... tonight, i thought i would lose it all ( Read more... )