its been awhile since ive done this, lets see if i remember ( Read more... )

yesterday was, for lack of a better word, amazing.  luke and i spent the day in san diego.  i got to meet some of his friends and he referred to me as his girlfriend.  it was nice.  plus he spent the day kissing me and holding my hand and being super sweet.  from time to time though i feel really bad about being so happy.  lately i have been ( Read more... )

lately i've been thinking about how much has really changed in the course of a year.  then i started comparing my life right now to what i was doing last year at this time...

jan. 2007

not living with my dad (my decision)
heart broken 
unsure of what i was doing with my life

jan. 2008

not living with my dad (his decision)
anticipating being heart broken ( Read more... )

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to make me happy

i cried at work today!
weak, i know. but my student and that shitty job really got to me.

i've quit smoking. its been like 3 weeks.
i've quit drinking as well...

for the most part.

i'm glad i did it. i feel better. i don't wake up regretting poor decisions anymore. that was getting ridiculous. i was getting really reckless for awhile.

-i'm starting to enjoy the routine of school and work ( Read more... )

i went to covina to help my sister grade some papers yesterday. after that the night got a little hazy. for two women ages 30 and 40, they sure do know how to have a good time. cynthia spent the night drinking with me, crown royal in fact 'cause thats her drink of choice. she kept buying me shots, and who was i to say no. we went to the moca ( Read more... )

the most uncomplicated relationship i'll ever have is the one i have with my pets.

it's late and the cats are playing with each other and pepe's wrapped up in my blanket sleeping. i love it.

everyone should at least have one pet.
coming home to them makes everything better.

i've been trying to find some balance. but its tough. and now with turning in applications i know its time to concern myself with things i'd been putting off ( Read more... )

my fears are as follows:

making bad decisions
missing out on things
having regrets

bad habits i need to fix:

procrastination
tardiness
laziness
never finishing things i start

have any suggestions?