I flip flop around this a lot. Last year was hands down the best Christmas of my adult life. I kind of got the whole thing for the first time. I was surrounded bythe people I admired and appreciated the most, gifts were given, food was eaten and everyone was happy for a whole day. This year, 75% of those people are gone, the most important one in a permanent manner. Gift buying was a chore again, no joy in it for anyone. I received a gift from my mom that lets me know how little she knows me so it just made me sad. Today, I am in complete agreement with you. Bleh...
I am too tired to continue the rant here (and I am inclined to do so as I agree whole-heartedly), but take this for what it's worth (and consider the incredibly cynical atheist source as well) you can have your ideal Christmas. That pretty much summed up last year for me. I've always had a real fear when it comes to buying gifts but last year that pressure was gone and I ahve no idea why...it wasn't even my first Christmas with these people (no blood relatives were included btw) This year is going to be completely non-standard too. It will be like any other Saturday which means sleeping late, playing video games and probably a good measure of porn and self-abuse (Spanking it for baby-Jesus, woot). Not exactly the Christmas miracle of last year, but you won't hear me complaining either.
I know that eventually I will be a master enough of my universe to have a decent Christmas. Eventually I will be out of college and have a career and make money again. Eventually I will be able to throw a low key party if no other friends are and have good food and a little booze and maybe buy a couple close friends gifts if I know of something that would be meaningful
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Actually, my vote for "most manipulative holiday" would go to Easter. Easter is an event where a bunch of people that believe a magical child was born from complete lack of conception and after he performed magic tricks he was nailed to a cross and died and his body disappeared and he's coming back someday for revenge vs. a bunch of people that believe a rabbit hides painted chicken eggs for children to discover on a Sunday conveniently shadowing the same Sunday that the body of the magical guy disappeared. And somehow, people find some sort of continuity in all of it. And somehow there's chocolate involved. Now that's manipulative.
I can see that, yeah. Christmas may not be as manipulative in premise/concept (although how baby jesus connects to a European tradition involving a generous, rotund fairy, buying gifts, and shoving a pine tree with shit all over it into your living room, I'm not sure) but Christmas is much more socially manipulative, I think
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Oh man, Valentines Day is definitely up there, you could be right on the V-Day count. I think what constitutes for "shitty holiday" in my mind is one that overall makes you feel bad/inadequate if you don't live up to terms X, Y and Z, and Valentine's definitely makes for a ton of pressure to not be single and to have a significant other interested in making a big deal out of the whole thing.
Next Christmas, I should just come home for real and hang out with old friends that I care about (including you!). I hope you had a great christmas, kam.
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Last year was hands down the best Christmas of my adult life. I kind of got the whole thing for the first time. I was surrounded bythe people I admired and appreciated the most, gifts were given, food was eaten and everyone was happy for a whole day.
This year, 75% of those people are gone, the most important one in a permanent manner. Gift buying was a chore again, no joy in it for anyone. I received a gift from my mom that lets me know how little she knows me so it just made me sad.
Today, I am in complete agreement with you.
Bleh...
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That pretty much summed up last year for me.
I've always had a real fear when it comes to buying gifts but last year that pressure was gone and I ahve no idea why...it wasn't even my first Christmas with these people (no blood relatives were included btw)
This year is going to be completely non-standard too. It will be like any other Saturday which means sleeping late, playing video games and probably a good measure of porn and self-abuse (Spanking it for baby-Jesus, woot). Not exactly the Christmas miracle of last year, but you won't hear me complaining either.
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So ready for January 2nd.
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Next Christmas, I should just come home for real and hang out with old friends that I care about (including you!). I hope you had a great christmas, kam.
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