I'm laying in bed about to turn the TV off so I could get to sleep when I saw something out of the corner of my eye. I look up to my one and only window and theres a man with his hood up on his hands and knees staring at me ( Read more... )

"..and addicts are not reckless and dont care. Addiction is a disease like cancer or like depression. Maybe if other people who are fortunate enough not to have an addicting personality and have those good copeing skills didnt treat addicts so harshly than they would be more apt to get help for themselves. Instead addicts hid at home and in streets ( Read more... )

hmmm well something just really upset me.. but my phone is dead so I cant call anyone, Steph is sleeping so I cant talk to her about it, so I am LJ-ing ( Read more... )

I am at a loss for words.
I mean literally, I have gone over, and over the dictionary in my head and I can't figure out with correct thing to say.
yet actions speak louder than words.
And when it happens, you best believe you'll know it.
and so theres nothing more to be said.

fuuuuuuccccckkk.
All I do is fuck up over and over and over again.
I cant do anything right.

well I went out to eat with Alex[Alister] last night. Then we went to some group thing, and then went and stayed at his house in Owosso. Hes got a nice hottub here too [: [NO I am not a slut thank you so no thinking that way.] And tonight hes taking me to Grand Rapids for the biggest bar night wooooooooo. Hes a bit to christian for my taste ( Read more... )

well I dont give a fuck what any one says but I am going to DOT for treatment. I am too fucked up. I just dont no when to go and i dont want to lose my job.. [my manager is beautiful]. cant do this again by my self again. and I miss my ex bf like crazy. I dont know why but I thinkn about him all the time. I am high as fuck and going to bed. I have ( Read more... )

I dont think I have been this upset in a long time. I am literally sick to my stomach and I am having a very difficult time stopping myself from vomiting ( Read more... )

so its pretty effing lame that the Residence Inn hires me and tells me that I am going to start this last saturday.. I meet all the managers and go pass my drug test.. and then bam they get new management and everything gets all fucked up ( Read more... )

I'd have to say taking myself off of xanax was a hell of a lot easier than I thought it was going to be. and I couldnt be happier ( Read more... )