when do I panic?????????
It seems like everything in my life is going to shit.

i hate this so much. i hate being here. i hate trying and trying and trying and having it never be good enough. im tired of constantly giving more and more and compromising more and more and having it never be enough. how am i supposed to live with someone who wont compromise ( Read more... )

so ive noticed a weird coorelation between drinking and typing skills. when im sober im a horrible typer, i cant ever do anything without typos, and i am pretty slow. when im wasted, of course i cant type worth shit. but i am pleasantly tipsy at the moment and i am typing so fast, it kicks ass!!! that the fuck is up with this, man??? hmmm, i ( Read more... )

try it out!!! very enjoyable!!!! (thanks shawn!)

give george a brain

i want to move to canada.
who's with me?

why do i feel like nothing I do is ever good enough?????
im tired of feeling like shit all the time, like i just cant please anybody
how can you hurt me on purpose and not even care??????
i'm trying to lose the anger over the past in the joy of the present

I am so tired and out of it today. I cannot concentrate on anything. I have a speech on wednesday that i haven't even finished writing, let alone started practicing. It's like I just stare at my computer screen. I type a bit and then my mind just totally blanks again. This quarter is totally draining me. I am not one of those people who ( Read more... )

On friday, we drove back to seattle (thank you again for coming to get me shawn!) and went over to andrew and alice's and then went to a toga party. it was pretty crazy! we werent wearing togas, but it was ok. the house was packed, but almost no one was dancing (damn you people, you're at a party! dance your ass off!) except for a couple really ( Read more... )

what's wrong with me? I want to be a teacher but I have had NO experience with kids!! My application to the college of education requires a section where you list all your experiences with "children and/or youth". now I could write about stuff I've done in the past like interacting with my brother's friends and stuff like that, but that's not ( Read more... )

its weird because i havent written in this thing for so long, and i have no idea what to say. im sure a lot of interesting things have happened to me since last time i wrote, but who knows ( Read more... )