I look in on my past and damn... i had some fun! I miss a lot of it but I wouldn't change a thing.

I dont know what I want with my relationship... I don't know if he is the right one. I don't know where the fuck my life is heading. Im 22 years old its bullshit. i don't know anything I feel so helpless. i thought I wanted kids. I thought I wanted a little white piket fence. ya know that whole ordeal. i dont know I think that im going insane. Im ( Read more... )

Well right now im kinda fucked up....but Im working on getting my feet on the ground...me and screamer are going to try for a baby!!!! On yeah! Work has been ok. Im in such a good mood. My b-day was the other day. I had a blast. But yeah I know what I want. And I want babies!!!

Well, I spent the whole time with my mom while she was down here for the weekend, it was eventful I must say. We got alot of stuff done. She gave me this beautiful 1 1/2 karet champaine diamond ring it is gorgous. And she bought me a new car. It is also amazing. 94 convertable del sol. Ah.. sucha nice car. Anyways I went to see blades of glory that ( Read more... )

Lately I have been pretty down in the dumps. I was suppose to go to the Mug tonight but I really don't have the extra money to spend, im buying a new car on thurs. a 94 honda del sol. I'm a driver, I can't sit at home with no car makes me anxious for some reason. I guess it is the idea that I can't go anywhere. I don't know. Im selling my car ( Read more... )

Well Me and Screamer took time out of our lives to take a vacation to mediera beach. The condo was beautiful. The weather was beautiful. 200 bux a night we stayed two nights it was great all the kids came out. I felt so depressed the whole time though, I don't know why it has been really bad this month. My axiety is wearing me thin. Stress is ( Read more... )

Things can always be worse than what they are ( Read more... )

I have baby fever again.. ehh. It sucks so bad. I meen I feel like shit now I would have already had my baby.. but no Im a bitch. I really don't want to work anymore. I just want to be a stay at home momma forever, isn't that suppose to be the american dream? I really feel like a cunt because I see now that Screamer would have been a great dad. :: ( Read more... )

Well, I am sick as a dog, spent $800 on a new laptop..oh yes. Dani is here and im to fucking sick to get up let alone drive. Fucking sucks. But anyways, there is a little bit of drama going on with the groups, I say groups plural cause that is what the groups is now "groups." Kinda sucks. Since the last time I wrote nothing really to much has ( Read more... )

My job is getting old.
I miss dani chris and mason so fucking badly.
I fucking hate probation.
I feel so trapped I need a new car so I can go up there and stay with them for a while. or forever! I feel so much pressure inside my head. I don't know what the fuck to do.
I just want to get away from it all.