The hope that was Erica is gone.
To be honest, she was right. I'm still hurting over jessica.

I dont want to go out but I have to.

I need to start keeping to myself

I've done all I can do to lie to myself that things are going to get better soon ( Read more... )

So I started talking to this person who kind of caught my eye a long time ago. Turns out this person is awesome beyond anything I could have imagined. She has spent so much of her time working with non profit groups for transgender groups (yes, she is and has always been a woman, fucktards) and other groups she has respect for. She has inspired me ( Read more... )

I've been making some big changes in my lifestyle ( Read more... )

My day back at work after a week off was fun as usual. Can't wait to start welding classes. Found out we are on shut down for next week, so I have another free week to sit around Highland ( Read more... )

Again, I'm deleting this LJ soon because quite honestly, it's never done anything but harm and shown how weak I am ( Read more... )

I've been an asshole posting our buisness on the internet ( Read more... )

Things are still really hard ( Read more... )

Still having a hard time ( Read more... )

Jessica's myspace page status says "smitten".
I read that "reasons why..." message she sent me a while ago last night.

I'm going crazy.

I need help.

I guess she\s seeing someone. It hasn't even been three months.
She said she never wants to talk to me or see me again.