Ya, I've had a pretty emotional week. Last weekend was the anniversary of the kidnapping and now that I'm sober it's like a vivid movie that plays in detail in my head everyday. May 5th... ya. But law suit settlement here I (I mean you) come! Then mom attempted suicide over my sister being an ass and my dad making a fat comment. Found her in the ( Read more... )

CHEESE! The next step at my new life was to get a job and get out in the world a lil more. So, I have the MOST glamorous job there is... oh ya... Kroger. But, heck, it is a job... and I've got a pretty good position there and it is money. So, I really don't care. I feel lucky to have it. I'm pretty tired! All my other jobs I would just be on pain ( Read more... )

Wow... becoming sober and growing up is tough! I took a look at my past yesterday and hung out with someone from then. I had no idea what a jerk he was. Sitting while he drug down all I have my heart invested in. I mean, people have their own right to an opinion on things, but don't talk down about my God. God is what is keeping me alive. He is why ( Read more... )

There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of what happened to me in May 06. Mom was dying my hair today (I always do it) and she found the bald spot. It's the size of a nickel. It's from where they tore the hair straight out of my head. Now it wont grow back. Mom said they took the scalp with it and I remember when it happened it burned so ( Read more... )

I'm taking in life quite slowly. I'm learning patience. I'm so much better. Clarke wasn't who I thought he was... but I'm moving on. I'm still haunted by what happened in May. Now that everything is so much clearer, and I don't pain killers to numb the memory, I have some rough days. I WILL DO THIS AND MAKE IT!

This is one of the hardest things I've ever done. I've been a heavy drug addict for six years. Started with the amount of natural pain from problems to just a dependency. "Gosh, these three Percocet feel great! I think I'll take three more and add a Klonopin." I never ever thought of it as a problem. I was just having a good time. I mean I had the ( Read more... )

Someone deleted my livejournal. So if you all get weird messages from "me"... they aren't me!

Yesterday I was discharged from the intensive care unit for a WEEK of layin there. One of my IV sites infiltrated so badly that I cant bend my wrist or fingers. Of course it was another scare of cancer. This time colon cancer. So they did a procedure to rule out the severity. Then I have pancrientitis, which isn't fun. I'd rather be there then here ( Read more... )

Went to the emergency. I passed out and had extreme abdominal pain and was white as a ghost. I couldn't drive home so I went to Gas America to call 911. I can't thank Justin enough for helping me out as much as he did. He is such a good guy. Speaking of good guys... I AM SINGLE! YAY!

As you steal my breath from my body ( Read more... )

Now... don't just walk away ( Read more... )